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Just finished reading filthy rejection and it was a good story

Hi everyone!
          
          As promised, I have finally completed my last work.
          
          I've been on Wattpad since 2014 and now is already 2020 so it has been a good 6 years. I have had so many wonderful memories and conversations that I still cherish to this day. Now that my promise has been fulfilled, I am officially closing my account. This account will no longer be active but I will keep my works up in case you want to read them. Thank you for relying on me through dms and constantly giving me support. You can still do it but I can't guarantee that I'll reply as I have no idea when I'll log in next.
          
          Here's the link of my promise
          
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          https://my.w.tt/Z6sR38cvS7
          
          I hope my works have brought you joy at least once in your life. Thank you for everything.
          
          exphiring is expired
          
          goodbye :) 

Hi everyone!
          
          I hope you're all well and safe in your homes. Remember last December when I said that I'm considering publishing one of my works that was supposed to be published before I closed my account? Well, it's finally out!
          
          I am so sorry it took this long and once again, I am very grateful for your continous support and appreciation. It's a short story but I hope you will read it well. Thank you once again and have a great day!
          
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          https://my.w.tt/55TR9tZss5

You may never see this message, but I just want you to know: you are amazing ❤️

I owe you guys an explanation.
          
          I loved writing. Wattpad used to be my safe haven- a sanctuary for me. A place where I could create whatever content that I want but that's not the case now. I'm busy and having books to update pressures me. Especially when I see all those lovely comments, I just go, "Ah I should write something for them," but like I said, I can't force myself to write. The pressure builds and I keep on saying that I'm working on something when in reality, I'm just staring at a blank screen. It kills me.
          
          While I was on a hiatus, I had a lot of time for myself and most importantly, to think. I discovered lots of things and looking back at things now, I'm happier than I was before. Wattpad used to be something fun but my mind twisted it and made it seem like it was some kind of job. My safe haven turned into a prison. Wattpad felt like a burden especially with the increasing amount of reads and followers. I constantly doubt myself and my writing. I wondered if my content was good enough. 
          
          Yes, I lied about my age because of that insecurity. I didn't want people to judge my content and say, "Oh a kid wrote this so it must not be good." My active writing period was in 2015 which makes me 12 years old at that time. With my age, I struggled a lot with trying to be amazing in writing. I was so hard on myself and that made me unable to release updates more frequently. Insecurity, pressure and more develops into this huge burden on my shoulder. That was when I snapped. I couldn't do this anymore so I'm sorry and please, respect my decision to leave. 
          
          Thank you so much for everything.
          
          exphiring, signing out.

I can't do this anymore

HAPPY NEW YEARS 

I might not come back and be the writer everyone expects me to be.
          
          I might not even come back to writing at all.
          
          I'm so confused.

How many more lives do we need to lose to realise that mental health matters?

Rest in peace Kim Jonghyun