gotta_be_larry_2029

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Why does he put up with it?
          	We joked around and I asked him 'why am I an asshole?' He said, 'because you keep saying that you are not an asshole, pretend that you are nice but it's very clear on your face when you talk that you are an asshole. Then you ask why you are an asshole hoping the person will deny it so that you feel like you are not an asshole when in reality you are and you are using it so that you feel better about yourself but you know you are an asshole'
          	Then why does he put up with it?
          	When I have breakdowns and call myself bad things and an asshole, deep down somewhere I used to know that I'm not as bad as I tell myself but it turns out I was wrong. All along. All this time. I was bad. I am bad. An asshole. A bad person, who doesn't deserve shit. Asshole, that's who I am.

gotta_be_larry_2029

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Why does he put up with it?
          We joked around and I asked him 'why am I an asshole?' He said, 'because you keep saying that you are not an asshole, pretend that you are nice but it's very clear on your face when you talk that you are an asshole. Then you ask why you are an asshole hoping the person will deny it so that you feel like you are not an asshole when in reality you are and you are using it so that you feel better about yourself but you know you are an asshole'
          Then why does he put up with it?
          When I have breakdowns and call myself bad things and an asshole, deep down somewhere I used to know that I'm not as bad as I tell myself but it turns out I was wrong. All along. All this time. I was bad. I am bad. An asshole. A bad person, who doesn't deserve shit. Asshole, that's who I am.

gotta_be_larry_2029

I feel empty. I wanna go home.

gotta_be_larry_2029

@gotta_be_larry_2029 wow this does mean a lot to me. Thank you man. You're a beautiful soul 
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@gotta_be_larry_2029 I know this would probably mean nothing to you, but just saying, I'm here and full on supporting. Because I'm sure you would do the same.
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gotta_be_larry_2029

Does anybody else just sit on their bed with things they want or people who love them and think, 'I wanna go home' because you just don't feel like you belong there in that moment? You wanna go home but you don't know where your home is? Life is scary.