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I think I’m going to take a little break from Wattpad for a while. I don’t know how long it’ll be, but I hope to come back when things get better. 
          
           Take care everyone. I love y'all ❤️
          

I want to disappear 

Friendship is a relationship that isn't connected by blood, yet it connects people so deeply that many find it easier to share their life problems with their friends than with their blood relatives. It is a bond that brings strangers together and slowly builds trust between them. I know nothing is perfect, and friendship is no exception. It doesn't have to be perfect. There will be ups and downs, arguments and forgiveness. Some people have been friends for months, while others have stayed friends for many years. Some are still close to their old friends, while others have different stories, and that's okay.
          
          There are people out there who call themselves unlucky or unfortunate just because their friends left them. I'm not here to lecture you about things you already know. I'm writing about this topic because many people are not only hurting their mental health, but they are also shaping their thinking in a negative way that won't help anyone. No one is born perfect, and humans don't have to be perfect. We are simply human beings with emotions. You did your best. You did your part. You showed genuine emotions, and you truly cared. But people have their own minds and make their own decisions. You can't force anyone to stay or choose your bond.
          
          You are not an unworthy person just because you don't have old friendships anymore. People choose to leave. Sometimes they give reasons, and sometimes they don't. You shouldn't keep putting yourself down because of that. You did whatever you could, so focus on that. Why always focus on the negative part? People come and go, and some bonds are hard to forget, but you can't stay stuck forever. I know it isn't easy, and I understand that no one can truly measure your disappointment or your pain. But you shouldn't carry that burden for too long. I hope the best things come into your life. I can't take your pain away, not even with words, but I truly hope they bring you some comfort and help you feel a little more at ease.

do yo what happened to dina? i can’t find her account on here and she won’t reply to my texts on snap

Some days are just confusing for us. We can't come to a conclusion about what is actually happening to us. You feel every emotion at once, and at the same time, you can't even name what you are feeling. You don't even feel like doing your favorite activities, and you also don't feel like interacting with your loved ones. Days like these also exist, and they are difficult to go through because nothing makes sense to you during those times. And it's even more difficult to explain it to someone when your own emotions are confusing to you as well.
          
          One of the hardest feelings to explain is when your emotions become confusing. You are not happy, but you are not completely sad either. You want someone to understand you, but at the same time, you don't want to talk to anyone. You feel like crying, but your tears don't come out. You feel like saying so much, but your mind gives you no words.This is what confused emotions can feel like.
          
          Many people think they are becoming cold or heartless because they don't react the way they used to. But the truth is, sometimes your mind becomes so tired that it stops expressing emotions the way it normally does. It is not because you don't care. It is because you have been carrying too much for too long.
          
          Imagine carrying a heavy bag every single day. At first, your shoulders hurt. After some time, you stop noticing the pain because your body gets used to it. The pain is still there, but you no longer react to it in the same way.Don't overwhelm yourself by thinking that you are being ridiculous or that something is wrong with you. It's okay. You are being normal. Things will make sense one day. I know it's painful for you right now, but never lose hope.

Did you talk to Dina?

Is she alright?

What happened to Dina??

Among all the challenges that you face everyday, the most complicated one is your emotions. You may have read or heard about it many times and maybe you need a lecture again but here I'm just putting my thoughts and I hope it helps in someways. Your emotions are part of you and you know it too, it isn't something new but the thing is that you should accept them, it means that they will show up at times whenever they are needed, it isn't weakness, laziness, immaturity or anything. All those emotions proves that you are a leaving and breathing human being who can feel. If someone doesn't give importance to your feelings doesn't they aren't valid, it doesn't mean you are acting or shouldn't ask for empathy. 
          
          You shouldn't feel bad for showing your emotions, this isn't bookish lecture, this should be reminded and applied into the daily of everyone. This is something basic and normal, people often behave like they shouldn't embarrassed their emotions at all. I understand we aren't surrounded by people who knows the value of emotions and it makes us behave like that, to pushed down our emotions into the depth where no one can reach. You need to understand that the more you will neglect your emotions the more it will impact you, and no will be affected as much as you. I just want you to accept your emotions, it means it's okay to feel empty, numb, overwhelmed and drained. I'm not saying it's good but what I mean is that don't over criticize yourself because of your own emotions. Don't neglect them because of people who lack basic understanding. 
          
          I want to ask you, does this message makes you uncomfortable in any way? I mean, do you feel overwhelmed or anything bad? Let me know if you are uncomfortable so that I can stop putting them on your board, I mean it in a good way, I understand everyone has different feelings and different way to heal. Let me know your answer. Take care of yourself.