I'm almost in college, just a month and a half then it's finally another year. Honestly speaking I am nervous, whenever I think about it my stomach would swirl and ache out of anxiety.
But what can I do? That's where I'll end up anyways.
I have been ditching class the entire month, and I'm way behind and I lack so much school works. I can't even explain my report card at this point. I'm getting worse and the only thing that keeps me sane is music and reading.
Reading just takes me to different places far away from this heavy and suffocating world.
And I hate myself for being such a problematic daughter, irresponsible and extremely no sense of urgency, lazy but ambitious student.