Imani Lucas

I knew I loved you 
          When even as my blood boiled with hatred for you. 
          The thought of you getting hurt made my heart stop.
          

I like you a lot, 
          But you weren't the one.
          We had lots of fun
          Laughing the night away.
          You laid on my chest,
          Eyes hazy with sleep
          Mouth quiet 
          As the world grew silent. 
          Your lips soft and thick like honey
          Slowly spilling out words of sweet seduction
          
          And you knew your limits,
          Didn't test mine
          As you ran your hands between my thighs 
          And let my fingers glide across the smooth skin of your chest that sported 
          Your "fear no evil tatoo"
          
          You were a dream, one I could only have once 
          A dream that sent an electric pulse through my body straight to my pelvis...
          Speaking to my soul. 
          
          Well that was nice 
          Guess it's time to say goodbye 
          And onto the next. 
          

I feel cold and ruthless when I move on from you so quick.

I can't get you face off my wallpaper but you have already deleted any trace of me.

I'm angry because I'm never heard.
          I'm angry because I am never heard.
          I am angry because I am used and only given words of discouragement and scorn. 

I'm not little,
          But I want to fit inside you.
          Feel your soul with all I am,
          Till you burst with the seeds
          And fruitations of my love.
          
          Your not big enough
          To shoulder my love
          And carry your pain.
          So I will shoulder you pain,
          Fight your fears,
          And become you shield.
          
          The world is not strong enough 
          to contain us.
          Our love stretches across the sky
          like a new sunrise.
          I as you knight 
          Shielding you from the night.
          Keeping your mind and heart clear
          Focused solely on my love that I have given you to bare. 

I have loved and died.

I don't want to live
          Everyday I breath I feel like my soul is on the edge of crippling despair.
          
          The worst part is that everyone that hurts me is everyone who is closest to me.
          
          I don't have a voice.
          I can scream and yell but it will never be heard. 
          It's why my pain is never known.
          
          No one ever listens. 
          But everyone is surprised when they learn my secrets. 
          When they hear of my pain, but while I suffered quietly no one wanted to hear a thing.
          
          Even she. I try to heal my soul alone.
          The voices and opinion force their ideology down my throat chocking me so I am both breathless and without a voice. 
          
          Even when I cry to your face. 
          It's better for you that I stay silent and don't make a sound.
          Because I am not a person.
          My thoughts do not matter. 
          Therefore it shall not interfere with your comfort or your world. 

I can't help imagining a future with you when you fit so well in my arms and your heart is so close in beat to my own.

Oh I forgot. Happy Valentine's Day!