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So momma when I die please hold in your cry, just know that when I am gone I'll be there by your side.
          
          Song playing on repeat. Don't have enough tolerance to be able to bear the pain for final curtain closure. Funny how this last step is what will bring peace ️ no more disappointed faces!
          
          But wishes are wishes action is required and I am too much of coward to do the action!
          

Why my mother birthed me !?
          When i am a shame for her, 
          Why didn't they left me to die
          When all i bought home  a bag full of sorrow.
          My love is also getting affected by my deep rooted sorrow, by the non existance of zeal, excitement to meet him, to go on long rides with him.
          
          He's not wrong to expect my company in full attention, but how to explain that now i have become accustomed to grief, sorrow and pain. These have become my comfort, happiness makes me alive till it lasted but this grief it stay by myside always, comforting me making me numb to feel anything expect feeling of being drowned but still breathing when next breath you feel it's the end no you breathe again but still drowned.
          
          It would have been good if I wasn't born.
          
          I may have came across many some become friends some acquittance.
          
          But do i have any significant role to play in anyone's life
          
          
          Let me think!
          
          Na
          
          Even if you take me out of their life it won't be big chance that'll stop anyone (neither i want anyone to stop living their life just because i am gone i am not worth that much importance).
          
          
          Anyhow have to live till the breathes keep going.
          
          

If one is physically tired one can rest and recover but what to do when one is tired mentally, emotionally and (Don't have any name to give this feeling but i am tired)
          
          Tired of everytime to trying to push through negative and stay positive or even neutral, angry that at times i have let myself be govern by negative thoughts not only about myself but others as well.
          
          Feel like i am covered in mud of the negative thoughts i had/have for myself and others through it rains and it washes  away but then this cycle keeps on going.
          
          I know I'll feel like this for a day or two and then back to normal or maybe i try to forget or ignore and act everything is normal.

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Today's thought
          
           I believe the ability to think is blessed. If you can think about a situation,  you can deal with it. The big struggle is to keep your head clear enough to think.
          
            _-Norman Vincent Peak_
          
          
          Human head carrying the processor of this body, BRAIN.
          
           And Brain is our friend and foe too.
          
           Bittersweet is the relationship we share with it. You know there are guide to tell you how to tame your brain and thoughts and what not.
          
          But tell be something would you like be tamed yourself, the answer is *NO* , obviously not.
          
          So how one expect that *BRAIN* will liked to be tamed.
          
          We need to expect first of all that *BRAIN*  too can somedays move away from path and take us on a whole new road which isn't ment for us. So what we do tame it ?
           *Nope,* like a light house we too need to show it correct path; by daily pratice of feeding good thoughts, surrounding ourselves with people that believe in us and push us to achieve and encourage us. Brain just need a guider to guide it through tough days.
          
          As on other days it's hell ya! Too Good  to go other way then the right path of you.
          
          
          Hope we check not only what we feed our *STOMACH* but also what we feed our *BRAIN*.
          
          Much love
          Manpreet

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Depression is a suction cup of rational thoughts, it manipulate one into believing there's nothing and no one for them. Thoughts of being not wanted/needed, it leads one on the way to self neglecting. 
          I urge you all to not suffer behind closed doors, don't sleep yourself with tears stained cheeks.
          
          The negativity takes so much space in body that the pain become unbearable and one tends towards ending one's life.
          
          DON'T LET YOURSELF LOSE IN THE HAZE OF THE ILLUSION DEPRESSION CREATES!
          
          Please reach out for help, don't hesitate for even a second. And most importantly let your trusted ones help you.
          Let them in, let them see you in that state so that they can take you out of it.
          
          
          《DON'T LET THE DEPRESSION MURDER THE LIFE IN YOU》
          
          
          I am here to anyone who wants to reach out and seek help, dm me , write on my board, dm me on instagram any of these option but do reach out if not me reach out to your loved ones.
          
          If it's difficult to tell your loved ones you can always turn here and we'll talk it all out.
          
          
          I'll be more than grateful to help anyone in any way.
          
          
          Meanwhile
          
          Take care you all
          
          Don't let the shine in your eyes die
          
          Love
          
          Manpreet