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Yesterday, my sister turned seven, she's my half sister. We have the same mother, but i don't really care and i don't give a damn about it. My mother, my step dad and my lil sis lives in Manila, because of the pandemic i never get the chance to go there with my grandparents, and that's fine, i understand. We greeted and sang her a happy birthday yesterday through video call. Compared to what i had on my seventh birthday back then, mine's a lil extravagant and many people attended. While hers, my mother had to snuck the people inside her house to have her lil birthday party. They don't tell it on words, but with their eyes, i get it. It's telling me how lucky I am that i experienced it, and it sucks. I'm not fucking lucky. I didn't get the chance to grow up with my mother and a biological father, a complete family, and lived happily. I grew up with a strict-or-not grandparents, tho i really love them, but it feels so unfair even tho i hate comparing my self to others. My inner child is whining and screaming inside me after seeing a Barbie doll house that my lil sister had a chance to have and play with. I mean, i had one before. But they won't let me play it and just put it on display. I guess, being born the same day as Nazareno gave you a lucky charm to have what i don't. Lucky her, lucky you. Damn it.