Lina <3

If only I could touch your face again
          If only I could hold you in my embrace again
          Kiss your cheeks, kiss your lips and tell you everything is gonna be okay.
          If only you knew how much I love you
          If only you knew how I'd die for you with no hesitation. 
          Mistakes were made, mistakes happened, I can't blame you for not trusting me anymore, but I can blame you for not seeing the unconditional love I have for you behind every right and wrong thing I have done. 
          You were my ocean
          You were my heart
          You were my soul
          You were everything for me, and maybe..just maybe you still are.
          Being without you is a living hell
          Being without you feels like my world has stopped.
          I would've waited, I would've tried and tried to gain your trust again, just because even after everything we've gone through even though we're completely opposite, even though its hard I still am madly in love with you
          If only you decided not to end it here. If only you saw how much I want your trust and how much I love you..If only you saw that I would do even the impossible for you.

Freedom.
          Will I ever be able to feel this emotion and understand this word? Freedom? The days go by and I am still locked in myself obeying everything everyone tells me to do. Freedom? When will this end, I need to be in my own self again. Freedom? I feel like a slave, should I accept that I have to be a robot again and again. Freedom? 
          No Freedom. Freedom is a word that I won't be able to feel and understand. 

Things are hard.
          I'm trying my best to do everything.
          Sometimes I think about life and how would it be if I was just a little bit different. 
          Good enough? Maybe.
          Just someone else. 
          It's got to the point that I really don't wanna be myself sometimes. I don't wanna be the person I am.
          It sucks to know that others are better than you with almost everything. Looks, talents, personality..love.
          I'm always compared to someone. That I should be more like them. That I don't do anything properly. 
          I'm trying. I am. I promise I am