Goal-Ripper

Hello  
          
          Firstly, I just wanna wish everyone a Happy New Year. This year was a conflicting one for me, because it had a lot of high moments but also some pretty low moments, so I’m hoping 2025 will be mostly positive.
          
          Secondly, I want to apologize for not being able to uphold my promise. I wish I had an excuse like I was sick or depressed, but really I’ve been terrified to write anything. I don’t know why this has been happening to me. It never used to for years. Now, I’m lucky if I can get 100 words written in the span of an entire week!
          
          I don’t know if it’s writers block or if there’s some mental problem I’m not aware of, but I’m gonna try to do better next year. I’m not gonna make any promises for specific dates, since I haven’t been good with making good on those recently. I just wanted you all to know I haven’t given up.
          
          Again… HAPPY NEW YEAR!

I know that it’s been a while since I uploaded a new chapter for anything. Life has been throwing me curveball after curveball after curveball… AFTER CURVEBALL… but I think I’ve almost reached freedom, so hopefully I’ll be able to upload something either this month or next month. 

Alright, that stage has finally left me. But just because I’m no longer in a depressing mood, it doesn’t mean I’m fully back to 100%. I lost the spark I was riding before the depression hit so I need to wait until that returns. 
          I won’t make any promises of still releasing the chapters at the date I set. They may get delayed a little. I’ll update you as soon as I know for certain. 
          Also, I’m very sorry. 

I’ve entered another state of depression. I don’t know how long this one will last but it’s hitting me hard where it hurts. I hope it will pass soon…

I should have said this sooner but I was too concerned with finishing up the current chapter that I’m writing. If I don’t say something now then I might not for a while longer.
          
          I did not intend to break my promise. For that I am sorry. If this makes up for even a little, I’ve been been continuing to work on this current chapter for whatever time I can. The other day I wrote over a thousand words but I can’t seem to find the right place to end the chapter. I want this chapter to be one of the longest (maybe THE longest) chapters I’ve written because I think it’s unfair how long I’ve made each of you wait for a new release. 
          
          I’m really hoping to publish the newest chapter soon. 

After I posted the recent chapter of my Secret Class fanfic, I planned on posting the next one a week after but obviously things didn’t go that route. I’ve been busy looking for a new job. Also, I really want to get this next chapter right because this is going to be really really important for the rest of the story. 
          
          I may post it towards the very end of this month or the beginning of next month. Fingers crossed  

Ok… first off I just wanna say I’m really sorry for saying in my last post that the wait was almost over before I completely dropped off the face of the earth. I don’t want to make excuses. The truth is I was really stressed and my anxiety was so high that I had to just drop everything. I didn’t mean to leave you all hanging for so long. There were so many times I wanted to get back to things, but I was scared that I would just mess things up. 
          
          Now, after weeks of nothing but time to think, I am finally getting back to things. I actually started writing last week but a bunch of annoying stuff happened and delayed my progress. But that’s all over now and I’m completely free again. 
          
          Once again, I’m really sorry for leaving you all hanging like that. I hope to be more responsible in the future.

Ok so I was originally gonna end the first volume at 25 chapters but, due to my wanting to take a break sooner and the app getting on my nerves recently, I’m shortening it to 20 chapters. That’ll probably make it easier for me to write longer chapters and not get too stressed with the amount. I promise the wait is almost over.

You know how sometimes you experience something so low that you think “it can’t get any lower than this?” Well, for me, it got lower. I have barely been getting some decent sleep for awhile but I ignored it. Today, I read over some of the new chapters I wrote and… wow. Now, I gotta edit and probably re-edit. I’m not kidding when I say that it was one of the most recent embarrassing moments of my life. I’m so glad that none of you got to read some of this nonsense. 

I’ve removed my list of “Future Story Ideas” because I have come to realize just how stressful it can be on your mental and physical health when writing. 
          
          I’ll probably still write some of those stories that were mentioned in the list and maybe some that weren’t but I’m definitely not going to write all of those. 
          
          Also, I want to thank all of you who have been reading my stories and wishing me good health.