leperqueen

low-key wanna write a Frollo fic, but like what the actual hellfire is wrong with me
          
          LMFAO

I think one of the problems with my stagnant writing is my doomer outlook. I realized I don’t even make up fake scenarios before sleeping, like I used to ALL the time and not so long ago. No daydreaming or *night*dreaming. I was such a maladaptive daydreamer. Now I’m decaying in too many ways to count.
          
          This daydreaming and the fake scenarios were always the main source of the ideas for scenes and everything in general, as is usually the case for anyone I think. Without this, what hope is there for my stories?
          
          Even though I have always, since a lil kid been pessimistic about the future, and that I have always been decaying, it’s like that capacity to escape suddenly broke, magic is gone. I used that escape for obvious purposes—I have never liked life, society, etc. as it is, so I always ventured to these safe spaces.
          
          So now? There is no escape. 
          
          It’s weird, you’d think being in love, which I still am despite it all, would increase daydreaming, but I have been actively straying away from that as well to avoid a delulu state. 
          
          Also, got a new phone tho, maybe I can write better now without being put off by all the lag and crashes and stuffffff?

Never Forget.
          
          I always remember a specific name; Jupiter Yamben, who worked at Windows on the World (Banquet Service Manager), and whom I was going to respectfully include (first name only) in my novel (Windows on the World), but I don't think the version I was writing ever got to mention him before I stopped writing it.
          
          In any case, we remember you all 🤍

yeah sorry seems i wont be able to get the other update out this month :(

⚔️🛡️🏰🗡️🗿♟️🔮🏺🪬🙀

Back after months and the only comments I get are bots. Nice work. Def worth it. XDDDD

1/2 pending HCW chapters published. Hopefully can update with the other one soon. Wish me inspo for a speedy editing of it. 
          Will go back to this one sometime later to fix things. Goodnightyyy

Okay i finished the Harvard CS50P (python coding) course and received my certificate so maybe now my mind will be a little freer to write again??? Tho imma be starting more 3D and game dev courses soon ^^’

I still wanna write a Kingdom of Heaven x Alien/Prometheus Ridleyverse crossover lolllll What would it be like? Not sure yet XD that’s the fun in it, the absurdity. But they’re lit my favorite movies (my other fav being Avatar, which is funny because James Cameron is also part of the Alienverse, having directed Aliens 1986)
          
          Meanwhile drawing an Engineer in Mesopotamian inspired armor…

InshAllah at least two updates this month
          
          SOON I HOPE
          
          UGH
          
          Anyone still here? LOL