livie512

I will not keep writing my crazy messed up life

bella1691

OLIVIA!!! Hi!! It’s Bella!! Remember we had talked what felt like a million years ago? 
          We started strong and we kinda faded into nothing. 
          You emailed me asking me how I was and I responded months and months later and I never got a reply. )): 
          I then emailed you again seeing how you were and I never got a response (I think...it has been a while since I’ve logged on to that email)
          A quick update: 
          I am a SENIOR in high school now (I think we talked when I was about to be a fresh?!) I’ve gotten into a couple of schools & am waiting to hear back from more!
          I have a new sister!!!! I don’t think you knew that....her name is Camilla and she’s now two years old now!! She is a fireball and truly something else!
          
          Well I really hope to start talking to you again...maybe catch up
          Hahaha maybe we can actually TEXT this time or just follow each other on Instagram maybe?? I’m not gonna lie...I’ve looked for you in insta lol but I realized that I had no idea what you looked like! Ha 
          I hope you’ve been great this past 3? 4? Years (((: 

livie512

@bella1691 hey!!!! I totally remember you. Yeah we just kind of faded off, we both got kind of busy. I am on Insta but I don't use it a ton. My username is Livie512. Follow me and send me a message through that and I will respond with my phone number so we can text. I would love to catch up! Today is my last day of classes for my first semester at COLLEGE!!! 
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livie512

hey! my name is Olivia and i turned 13 may 12. i live in a small town on the eastern shore of maryland and i have a very ... i guess you can call it complicated life. it is crazy and soooooooo messed up. i can't tell you any more though because that would tell you what my first book will tell you. i will be writing a non fiction story about my life. i know i know it sounds really boring but you have NO idea what is in store for you. i mean my life is just rediculously awful. the things that i have had to go through are things that would knock anyone off their feet for good. But somehow, don't ask me how, i have managed to get up and still have a smile on my face everyday in public and around my family. But as soon as i am alone i pretty much fall apart. i just holds all my anger and feelings in and then let them explode when i am in private. why do  i not confide in my parents you might ask... well i know they have gone through everything i have (all except for one thing but thats off topic) and they manage to not show their emotions and they have already gotten past the grief and i can't bring myself to make them come back. i can't let them see me all upset because i know that they will get upset seeing me upset. i do not want to drag them down and it would soooo not be fair for me to do that. life is already unfair enough without me helping it out. 
          
          
          
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          i would love to tell you more but i am already talking to much about my story.