Maria Guillen

What's great about this story is that I feel that everyone at some point had to deal with something similar. I hope this story touches your heart. https://www.wattpad.com/story/90461380

It's been months since I last been on here. Things are changing a lot. I graduated almost two months ago from high school. Just last Friday, a day after my birthday I moved out and moved in with my brother to Fairfield. It's hard adjusting to this new setting. Ever since I moved in I haven't really gone out much and I have doing my best efforts in looking for a job. My brother keeps stalling on it. It's getting quite frustrating. But anyway, I'm starting to feel a bit disconnected. I've been surrounded by only 4 walls while my brother is away working. It's hard adjusting.

I'll be heading to San Jose on April 16th for Admitted Spartan Day! YES! YES! YES!

I got accepted to San Jose State and of course East Bay. I am beyond undecided of where I want to go. Oh decisions!

FYI I got accepted to my number one choice! This means I get to pursue my dreams!

Males are 5 years IMMATURE
          Females are 5 years MATURE.
          -My Instructor

"Rage, rage, rage." 
          I feel like a monster. 

I talked to my counselor and how I've been feeling lately. I told her I've been feeling some kind of dark anger. A deep disgust but that by the end of the day I feel sad. Very sad. She says I have depression. And I don't want to be depressed. It's the worst feeling in the world. I don't know how to deal with it. I hate it. I don't want to feel like this. It scares me. 
          advice would help. 
          Thanks
          -Maria the Misfit

It's so annoying that people in relationships are like "Because of you I am happy." Are you really going to depend on your bf/gf to give you happiness? Happiness starts with you. Don't rely on other people to make you happy. Make yourself happy. It seems like most of the time when people are happy is when they are in a relationship. But when they are not, they're depressed. 
          Bullshit, you don't need anyone to make you happy. Or else how will you really know true happiness?
          Just a food for thought. 

My idol, Bayley is actually born in San Jose.