I'm sorry for this, but I need way to get my feelings out. Please do not read of emotion/emotional pain makes you uncomfortable and/or triggers you. You are not responsible for my life or my feelings. You are not a bad person for not reading.
Why am I not good enough? All I've ever tried to do was be a good friend. What am doing wrong? Why don't you listen to me anymore? Am I really that unmemorable? All I've done my whole life is flip over nothings over and over again, hoping that underneath all the nothing there is something. But there never is. I have been running on water for longer than can remember and I can't stop. I can't stop running no matter how tired I get or how much it hurts because the moment I stop I'll sink. But everyday, the option to sink becomes more appealing. All I want to do is be a good person. I just want to be a Good Person. It's never enough. Why?
