hi, babe. i've finally came to make a very serious decision. i'm going to let you go. i've been messaging you, textinging you, and showing up at your house randomly, during day or night. my obsession with you is very unhealthy for me, and it's been negatively affecting others around me.
your suicide took a huge toll on my mental health. i'm not sure ehg you dud, what you were thinking while doing it, or what triggered you to do it. you were always smiling from ear to ear, and you were always happy, i would have never guessed whatever you were going through.
i've been a horrible friend. i only hung out with you when it was convenient for me, i always asked for favours, and i will admit that i was an attention seeker. i feel absaloutley horrible for the way i treated you. we used to be so close when we were younger, but we drifted apart. i miss those days.
i'm going to be completely honest here. your decision was not selfish, not at all. though you hurt many people with your actions and choices, whatever you were going through must have been truly terrible. i'm so, so sorry for not realising sooner.
remember that i'm only letting you go, not forgetting you. i can never forget you, even if i tried to. half of my memories have you in them in one way or another, and you were my best friend and all time favourite person in the world. you will always own a place in my heart, but i have to move on, for my sake.
i hope you understand. this will be my last ever message to you, ever, and after this, i will no longer communicate with you. i will keep in contact with your parents however, and they are currently mourning for you.
you made my life do much better, and having you by my side was the best experience in my entire life. no one gas, will or can replace you, you are with me forever and always. i love you with all my heart, and i will cease to forget our memories with each other.
with lots if love,
- rin
