Hi guys , just a little info about me , I'm into rock music, tequila is my fave drink, i love  tattoos and piercings and I've been in love with vampires and the supernatural since I was 6 and first read interview with a vampire .

I love to listen to music and forget the world 
I am a mother , a daughter , the strong one , the baby , I am the classic middle child even though I have no siblings I am the one who breaks my neck to keep the family calm and happy .
But if you actually open your eyes you'd see I am non of these things , they are the roles I play . 

I AM ME ....

I bleed to know my heart still beats,
I scream to know my lungs still breath,
These things to know I'm still alive,
When really I'm dieing inside.


After putting on my big girl pants in Feb and seeing bvb on my own , I had a blast so I'm off to download festival in a couple of months and then to bvb in Nottingham in Dec, I might go for VIP tickets .x I'm killing this social anxiety disorder.x hell yeah.

Download festival was awesome although I had to stay sober in order to keep stable and stop paranoia setting in. 

I've been super busy moving house and with my son, but I've added a new incentive to my calendar. Rockbitch boat in Sweden in Nov. Before bvb in Dec . I need positive things to make getting through days bearable.x

the number 13 haunts my life, we lost my grandmother on that date a few weeks ago. she died in her sisters arms in the garden with my son and his second cousin playing nearby, there was no pain or trauma , she simply closed her eyes and left us on a sunny day in the beautiful garden my grandfather had made for her before his passing a few years ago. even the clouds wept as the ambulance took her away.

I haven't been in the place to write for a while , but hopefully I will be soon.

Loved meeting Jamie Campbell bower and his band counterfeit again this yr . Always let my hair down in the mosh pit 🤘 
Heading to asylum18 supernatural convention in 18 days 💜