ph41n0n

and i hope that it hurts

ph41n0n

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i refuse to go back to that hell hole. no, i don't want to be there anymore. i was never apart of them. i was never their friend. why did i even come there in the first place? why is there so many bad memories more than the good memories? why am i getting treated the same i was treated in my hometown? did my mother give birth to me so i could experience lonely? why did i even meet them in the first place. why did i even bother?
          
          whenever someone insults me, it's always about my looks. fuck, am i that ugly? "they're always that" what about my feelings? why are you still friends with them? is it because you know them longer more than you know me? why are you laughing with them? why? you never seem to care about me when you're with them.
          
          do you hate me? you said you care about your friends, am i not your friend? why is that when it comes to me you told me not to disturb you but when it comes to other people, you want to be "quirky"? seriously, what am i to you? do i look like someone who doesn't have feelings?
          
          i'm scared. i run away. i'm not as strong as you think i am. i cry. i act tough because i didn't want to look weak. i tried my best to not look weak but in the end, my feelings got the best of me and i made everything worse. i'm the worst. i only think about my feelings but not everyone else. i tried to understand why you choose them but not me. i'm sorry i couldn't be a better friend.
          
          i'm sorry, i hope we never cross path ever again.