queerfanofmusicals

just came back after only using ao3 and WOW wattpad search function-...let’s just say it leaves a lot to be desired...

So you’re probably wondering where I’ve been...
          IM ALIVE. and doing okay, actually. it’s been a bit rough, but i’m here. none of my fics are being discontinued. in fact, i have an ao3 now! i’m @allthewayfromatoz. i feel like leaving wattpad soon, i’ve just outgrown it. i’ll make an actual post soon, but i just wanted to let y’all know i’m not dead, i’m still writing, and where to find me :) <3

I’m depressed, gay, and playing subway surfers...

Me: Posts a oneshot
          Me .04 seconds after posting said oneshot, checking if anyone has read it: validayshunn 

I have officially reached 69 followers!!! Nice!!
          (but seriously thank you so much, and I've kinda gotten a boost in energy and motivation, so I will be updating For The Dancing today!)

More people have been following me recently, so I wanna ask if any of you have suggestions of what you want to see my write. A few one-shots should be published today, so look out for that! :)

If one more person says "All Lives Matter" or "Not all cops are bad" or "I don't see race" I am going to rip my hair out. These statements are so much deeper than the appealing name, these people need to look into the "movement" they're supporting. It leads to a bigger problem. It's a problem that I feel unsafe in my own home. And it's not because of the virus.

K I would usually just write this in my journal but I don’t have it rn so here’s my out of context rant. 
          
          How???? Do emotions???? Work???? I’m literally always faking my emotions around my family and I didn’t bother today since it’s my birthday and I should be able to exist without acting 24/7. So when the only time I don’t analyze every person’s every move, I’m now being soooo rude and insensitive, and I hurt my aunt’s feelings, and I STILL don’t know what I did wrong??? Apparently it’s that I didn’t show enough emotions and like???? What???? How am I getting I trouble for not showing enough emotions???? I’m sorry that I’m literally shit at emotions, but I can’t change that! Tbh from the abnormally large amount of research I’ve done, I express ALL of the symptoms of autism in girls which like,,,if that’s the case then I’m sorry I can’t read social cues but it’s not my fault. I thought she was joking but then she started crying out of nowhere and like???? I’m sorry that I made her feel bad but I’m not sorry about whatever the fuck you think I did that was so rude cause I LITERALLY DONT KNOW WHAT YOURE TALKING ABOUT. Only two friends remembered my birthday, one of which I don’t even like and moved to fucking JAPAN two years ago. It’s not even that I care about birthdays (frankly I don’t see the point in it all “congratulations, you exist!” But anyway I digress) it’s that they didn’t remember a date that’s considered important. But yeah, I’m feeling pretty shitty. Ignore this plz. 

Can’t wait to move out of Florida so I don’t have to see a confederate flag on every street. Along with the assholes that claim it’s “Freedom of Speech”. If the ISIS flag should be banned, so should the confederate flag. 

So Sander Sides theory(?) read my previous post in order for this to make sense. 
          
          So once Character!Thomas changes his thoughts that different imagination is good or bad, Roman and Remus won’t have a reason to stay separate anymore. That’s what they’re built on, and if/when it changes, their forms are DEFINITELY going to change. 
          
          They might morph into different beings, or come together again like many people theorized. 
          
          I kinda want them to come together and their color to be like a sick greenish-red just so that we all think the rainbow theory was wrong then BAM there is an orange side out of nowhere! 
          
          This is less of a theory and more me babbling my incoherent thoughts on a possible scenario, but yeah. It makes prefect sense for the narrative, but I don’t think they would do that just because Remus was JUST introduced and the Roman Stans would absolutely lose their shit like Tumblr would be a wasteland of tissues for at least 4 weeks after the episode where that would happen. 
          
          They would probably hold a funeral too y’all know the Roman Stans would do that and tbh I think I would attend he’s growing on me the more I analyze him. 
          
          That sounded weird okay that’s it.