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I'm trying so hard to get the next chapter of Harley's story up, but I have zero extra time right now and motivation is lacking. I blame JJ's effed up death for this writer's block. UGHHH.

I have an idea for Harley Smith's story but putting it out there now might possibly spoil part of what I know i'm doing for sure but ngl I'm hella excited for what I have planned HEHE

Just finished Dawsons Creek for the first time around… I’m sick and effing tired of characters dying on me like wtf. Stupid show had me crying for a whole 45 minute episode! ISTG if I have one more good character die on me in the next year I’m signing off AHHHH

Can anyone tell me, when your writing a scene in your FF do you act it out yourself to make sure it’s not cringe or do my parents have a right to think I’m insane talking to myself in my room 

Thank you so much for the follow! <3

I say I have too many OBX fanfic ideas and then I go and make another one, 3 are in the drafts and only summaries but I need to be stopped. A total a 5 is absolutely insane, ISTG

Also this is gonna sound absolutely feral and insane but I’m ten times more excited to write Harley’s storyline in Unknown now that JJ dies. I know insanity… when I actually get to a certain point in the story you’ll understand, I promise. I’m still sad that he’s dead though

I have too many fanfic ideas for OBX, the two that are currently published and now two more sitting in my drafts. Granted I’m really excited to get into the nitty and gritty of all of them but the whirlwind of ideas is almost suffocating. 
          
          Also I reread my first ever published fanfic which has just been sitting on WP now for like 4 years unfinished. It’s the only one I’ve ever written in first person cuz I preferred it then so I actually kinda of expected it to be complete and utter trash but I’m ngl it’s a lot better than I expected. A little cringy for sure and some execution could have been done better but it really isn’t bad (or I’m just delusional and biased). Also it was a teen wolf one but that’s beside the point.

I, in all seriousness, do not know how I will ever watch the first few seasons of OBX again. That fucking ending was FERAL. Although I will say there’s apart of me that is excited for the revenge arc but… probably an unpopular opinion… i think… JOHN B would have been a better character to kill off just bc of how absolutely insane JJ would have gone and the ties he had to every single one of the pogues and with all the rumors and shit it would have been straight out of left field… NO ONE would have seen it coming. I’m turning my phone off now because I can’t keep seeing all these sad edits, they keep making me cry. 
          
          I’VE been crying for TWO days now over a fictional character… I’ll be back in like a year once my heart has healed… 

I genuinely wish I had never watched OBX, it has crushed me more than any other work of fiction