@KaiTheDino15
Oh my... I'm so sorry.
I understand that you're hurting, you're not stupid. Just,, take a breather real quick, please? The lengths you're willing to go to for your lover(s) is amazing. I personally don't know what you're feeling or thinking so I can't exactly, command you to just not do something.
Maybe you could at least snack on something? Like an Ice-Pop? Those are solid liquids with flavors. And at least and hour or two of sleep? That way it's not really "sleep" but is a nap instead?
I understand that you're willing to go so far for someone, a lover, but how will you know if they're okay if you can't be 50 out of 100 and able to just check on them?
I'm not going to dictate and tell you what to do, though. Those were just suggestions and things to think(?) about. Please just be safe in doing what you intend to do.
And please don't hurt yourself..
/gen