I'm going to be honest. I'm not okay. My eyes hurt and I have a severe headache. My heart hurts and my mind is going through denial. I keep listening through his songs, hoping that it's all just a long nightmare. But it's not. It's reality. I've never experienced the death of a loved one, but now I do. Even if I'm only a fan. Jonghyun held a special place in my heart. Honestly I'm not the type of person to express my emotions easily, especially on social media. But since I unconsciously destroyed my source of mobile contact through amino, this is the only way I can reach out to others. Jonghyun...You worked hard. I know this post is messy but...that's what I want to say. You did well. You never lacked but grew instead. You endured the pain for too long. And sadly a gem like you within our planet, had to become a SHINee star. Sorry I had to continue Onew's uncle jokes too, since I love them. Play your kazoo peacefully. Since, you won't be held back by your griefs and sorrows. Ot5 will continue to live, even if you're not physically present. You were a blessing to humanity. *holds back tears* I-I'm going to pray for you and buy a candle just for you. THE WATERS ARE THE BORDERS. FITE ME PACIFIC OCEAN. IF IT WE------ I'll hold my funeral for you right here in my room and pray for 12 hours straight or the whole day. [depending on which one I won't be scolded for] I'll kneel for that period of time until my tears will dry up and I-I-I l-let go...........I-I'll even play your songs and will be willing to sacrifice my brothers. But typing that isn't funny, right? I shouldn't do that...Just be happy Bling Bling.
