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In my head are so many voices and I can't stop them talking shit about me. No matter how hard I try to convince these voices that it's ok to not be perfect and to do mistakes...they still go and destroy me from the inside. I hate it. I want a new start. I wanna be child again and be happy with no thoughts about my future or the past. I want to live in the "now", like I've done when I was a child. But I can't go back to these days...I have to live with these voices I my head, that tell me I'll never have a future...that all the difficult times are not worth it, that I should give up right away so I don't have to endure more pain...but I don't want to give up. I wanna live. But it's so f*cking hard to live. I'll stay strong for my family and friends...I hope that only this and last week I am feeling extremely sick and that I'll feel better soon...
Yea...better times will come soon. At least I hope so :/