Hi author I just finished "The illusion of us" anI have felt so many emotions in my chest, so many tears fell from my eyes and I giggled so much too. It was just perfection wrapped in letters, absolutely phenomenal.. I have read enough amount of jh fics and I can say that this was like really freaking good one of my faves for sure If it turns out like this, I want an arrange marriage too.. I just can't stress enough on how much I loved ur writing.. It felt so real and I felt sm things I doubt any other book has made me feel.. I finished all of it in one day.. Wanna mention how much it reminded me of my first love, my one sided love, the boy I would do anything for as long as I could get crumbs of him. I also thought about love the way yn did that it's only giving wo expecting back.. And the line "it's just self sacrifice" hit hard .Although it wld be a lie if I say I didn't wish he gave some of it back, smth, anything. But he couldn't even give me that. He didn't even bother to try.. He knew I liked him, I told him that he didn't have to do anything about it but I believed that he would at least let me keep reaching him when I wanted to but no he ended up ghosting me ..Shutting all the doors.. Being so cruel like I didn't even deserve the crumbs... This books first few parts reminds me of what possibly could be if he was kind, if he tried just a little, if he took my feelings into consideration even a little.. Just if he thought about how his actions wld hurt me, how I deserved to be treated w care.. Jeonghan took time but at least he realised it at one point.. Probably me drawing a correlation between the two doesn't entirely make sense but it does to me ngl lol.. I THINK I WROTE TOO MUCH WAY TOO MUCH FORGIVE ME FOR THAT I just wanna tell you that it was a great book and really touched my heart..