gosh, i’m hardly ever on here. i actually don’t know why i still have the app but i’ve just come on here then to see that message down below, about a boy flirting with me. its funny that a couple of nights after that i went to a halloween party and this boy was flirting with me (we’d met before) and we got to talking; and now he’s been my boyfriend of six months!! time flies. exams and relationships and friendships are all going so fast. how am i? i’ve been better, thats for sure but i have been worse (i think). i hope (i pray) that how i’m feeling is just a bad spell i can get out of, i can drink the elixir to become immune to the pain. i’m lucky, luckier than most, i have people who care and to be honest, i don’t understand why. sometimes its hard for me to accept that i do deserve friends and i deserve love and happiness like anyone does, because when i’m falling down that tunnel of despair, i feel hopeless and useless but those around me help.
god this turned out to be a bit of a diary entry. my apologies, i should save that for my «actual» diary.
alas, i need to get ready now, i have an englang exam and i see my boyfriend today!! so, if anyone ever reads this. its fine, its all okay, and it will be okay, and you’re not the only one going through this, we’re going through it together.
all the love, ell x
