hellooooo
today was an okay day, I should probably be writing in here a lot more because it'll be easier to keep track of my mood and stuff but it's whatever.
I stayed at home most of the time and played video games. I didn't eat a lot but I ate enough. This whole week I've been craving monster but it's been hurting my stomach ever since I've last drank it :(( also Panda Express hehe..
I'm kinda getting tired of my boyfriend, not like wanting to break up with him but I feel like things are different. I've lost my virginity to him, we've kissed, we've hugged, we've cuddled, it feels like nothings special anymore. I didn't wanna lose my virginity to him because I was waiting until marriage (even though that sounds super Christian) and I'm still not 100% sure if he's the right person. I love him with all my heart but there are some doubts that I have.
I've been lingering on this for a while but I honestly think I'm a lesbian. The thought of dating men doesn't satisfy me anymore and the male genitalia never has. I like women a lot and I just overall feel like I would be more comfortable with a girl, but I might just have a preference for girls. I'm still trying to figure out who and what I am.
I felt really pretty today and did my makeup and my mom said she feels embarrassed to go out in public with me :') it kinda hurt because I rely on my mom with everything and tell her everything but ykk she's always like that. Doesnt mean it hurts any less though
