wdw boyxboy one shots/imagines

zaniel

-third person
-december 24th, 2020
-lol i'm mentally unstable

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daniel sobbed into his pillow, hoping no one would hear him. he couldn't do it anymore. he just wanted the pain to stop.

he worked so much on making everybody else happy. he did everything for the fans, his family, even the boys. he couldn't take it anymore.

the door opened, then closed, then a hand started rubbing his back.

"daniel, my love"

zach said, he could feel the sadness daniel felt, just by walking in the room. everything daniel felt, zach did too. zach was so in love, taken over by love.

"yeah?"

daniel said, turning his body around so zach could now see his tear ridden face.

"what's up? talk to me, i'm always here."

zach sat down next to him on the bed, holding his hand.

"i can't be with you, zach."

daniel said, his chest heavy.

"w-what? i did something? i'm the one who caused you to feel like this?"

zach said, his heart breaking. all he ever wanted was to love daniel, not make him feel this way.

"n-no i just- zach."

daniel said, a tear falling down his cheek. zach looked at him in his eyes.

"speak. explain, please."

zach said. daniel nodded to him before sniffling.

"i-i try so hard. i've realized, zach, you are the love of my life. i do love you, with every piece of my being, ever single piece of my heart belongs to you. i can't do it anymore. i'm always so focused on making everyone else happy, i failed to realize that i'm not even happy."

daniel said, zachs lip quivered, he could feel himself tearing up. he looked at daniel.

"you're not h-happy? why?"

zach asked, still confused.

"zach, it's hard to love someone else, when you can't even love yourself. i-i need to find love in myself before i can spread love for anybody else. i've been trying so hard, i'm exhausted, zach. i need to find myself i need to be happy with myself, & love myself, before i can love you."

daniel said, finally being able to get it out. zach nodded.

"i'm not breaking up with you because you did something, or because i don't want to be with you. i do, i do want to be with you for the rest of my life, but i'm not even sure i want to live the rest of my life as of right now. that's the problem. i'm unhappy, i don't love myself. i just need me time. time to find love in me."

zach nodded.

"i'm always h-here. if you want to talk. i love you."

zach said, tears falling down his cheeks. he got up & walked out of the room.

the next few months were rough, daniel was gone back to his hometown a lot, he was with his family a lot. he barely saw the boys, the only time he did was when he recorded songs with them.

over the time, zach had taken a few weeks to himself. he had to make sure he was okay. the person he loved, randomly leaving him, was difficult. but, jack was always there.

jack always seemed to be there for zach. whether it was giving him a hug every morning, or always wiping his tears, jack was there for him in ways daniel never was.

jack made him happy. jack made him feel the love he always wanted to feel. he was finally happy again.

daniel comes back to la, to tell the boys he's back. he's ready to be the band again. he's finally happy. most importantly, he was ready to tell zach that he's back, that he's ready to be together.

he walks in the bands house, seeing jonah in the kitchen.

"yo? daniel?"

jonah says, a smile forming across his face.

"what's up, bro? i'm back. like, back back."

"finally"

jonah says, daniel laughing. he gave him a quick hug.

"where's zach?"

"downstairs, i believe."

daniel nods & walks through the kitchen to see corbyn on the couch.

"what's up, bro?  i hear you're back"

daniel giggles & gives corbyn a whats up fist bump.

he walks down the stairs, leaving his luggage at the top of the stairs.

he was nervous to see zach, but so excited. he could finally love zach the way he wanted.

"zach?"

he said, seeing zach on the couch.

"daniel?"

zach said, in awe. he was back.

"hey, bro."

zach says. fist bumping daniel.

daniel was taken back, confused on what was going on. he wasn't happy to see him?

"i-i'm ready, zach. to love you, to be loved by you. i-i wanna be with you."

daniel said, walking up to zach & grabbing his cheek.

"i-i'm sorry."

zach says, backing away. daniels heart dropped.

zach didn't wanna be with him. he wanted to be with jack.

"i'm with jack, now. he wanted me for who i was, he didn't need time."

zach walked up the stairs. leaving daniel, his heart broken in his hands.

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a/n- lol depression