Working For My Bias || Hwang Hyunjin FF

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HYUNJIN POV

"Why can't I get you out of my mind? You've hurt me so bad yet I can't seem to forget you." I looked at the picture of me and her. Thoughts came running in my head the more I looked at the picture on my phone.

We looked happy during those days. Those days when the love was still present. I thought about the many reasons why she would leave me; nothing came to mind.

We were inseparable. Or so I thought. I looked at her expression in the picture. She was smiling yet I could see the frown clearly written on her beautiful face. Was she using joy to cover the sadness? I wondered if that was the exact moment she decided she wanted to leave me.

Everyday I pondered on whether her love was sincere; Or whether it was just a game that she played? If it was, she must've beaten every level there is.

The months flew by but my love for her didn't. The dates we had were magical, and when she held my hands, a thousand fireworks set off. And the way I felt in her embrace... It felt so surreal. I still remembered every anniversary that we had. Her smile, her laugh...I fell for it.
Was that not love?

Was I blinded by love? I guess I was. I was blinded by every inch of love I had for her. I used to feel pain when she left me. But now, the pain grew numb. I didn't feel anything; I didn't love anyone. I hate her. I hate her with my whole heart. The heart that she ripped into shreds.

But the worse part? It wasn't her leaving me. It was her leaving without saying anything to me. Not even a text message. She just vanished, she vanished into thin air like a ghost. I've tried searching for her every single day until my members held me so that I wouldn't go out. That was what she did. She made me like this. A fake person. A person who doesn't show his real emotions, scared that others would leave him.

I started to quietly sob, not knowing someone was looking at me the whole time. "Kim Yeon Ha?" A girl said and I knew exactly who it was. I turned around and saw her running away. I quickly went out of my room and held her wrist, making sure she didn't go anywhere.

NO ONE'S POV

"I'm sorry. I-i didn't mean to eavesdrop on you. It's just that I heard your voi-" Y/N tried to explain but got interrupted by Hyunjin. "W-why did you say Kim Yeon Ha? Do you know her?" Hyunjin asked, as he ruffled his hair in annoyance. "You said her name before. In your sleep." She replied, fidgeting with her hands because Hyunjin looked a little mad. "D-do you want to talk about it? You seem pretty sad about her. I-im here if you need anyone to talk to."

Hyunjin let out a small chuckle, "Stop acting like you care oh my gosh. You invaded my privacy and now you want me to talk about it like I'm your friend or something? Well, hate to break it to you but I'm not your friend and I'll never be your friend. And don't say her name like you know her." Hyunjin let out all the pent up anger he had on her. Not caring what she felt after he said those words. "I-i'm sorry." Y/N ran into her room and shut the door.

The words he said pierced her heart like a two edged sword. She didn't know why it hurt so much but it did. She knew it wasn't right for her to be invading his privacy yet she did it anyways. Y/N sat on her bed and let out soft muffled cries.

She knew it was her fault and didn't blame Hyunjin for the harsh words he threw at her. Yet she felt sad when he said that they weren't friends because she really thought that they were at least, getting closer.

On the other hand, Hyunjin was outside in the living room contemplating whether the words he said were too harsh for her or not. He knew that she was very sensitive and fragile but he couldn't deny the fact that she tried to invade his privacy and tried to so call 'talk about it' with him. Which he most certainly did not want to.

Of course he didn't mean to hurt her feelings but he had all the pent up anger from when that girl in the picture left him, that he couldn't keep it inside him any longer. He had to let it go. And he did but the consequence? He hurt a girl. A girl that just wanted to be friends with him.

Y/N POV

"Why the hell did I do that? I must be stupid." I said quietly as I hit myself in the head. It's wrong for me to just disturb his privacy. But what he said hurt me. Were we really not friends? Not even a little bit?

I thought more on what he said and my heart just broke. Tears were coming out of my eyes. I knew what I did was wrong on all levels but he didn't need to be so harsh about it. 'I'm not your friend and I'll never be your friend', it hurts. It really does. He didn't even seem hesitant about saying it.

But I wouldn't blame him though. I knew I had to make it up to him somehow. I mean I could make a dessert for him specially, right? Would he like it? Or should I just apologize normally? I have no idea. But I'mma try making a dessert for him first. Hopefully everything goes well.

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NO ONE'S POV

For the next few days, Y/N tried to make it up to Hyunjin. She tried to bake him a cake with chocolate since she knew he likes it a lot. But he didn't even touch it. Then, she tried making a batch of brownies but again, he didn't even touch it.

She tried multiple times saying sorry. She wrote a letter to him saying how sorry she was but he didn't even read it.  At school, she would try sitting next to him and pass him a sticky note saying 'sorry' and again, he didn't read it. It was as if he was ignoring her like she was a ghost.

It went on for almost a week. Y/N trying to apologize and Hyunjin not giving a damn about it. Even the other boys were starting to sense that something wasn't right between them.

To Be Continued...