gundham x reader

How did this end up happening!?

i promise i don't ever forget about this!!! it's just hard to keep up with sometimes

I woke up what must've been a couple of hours later. It hadn't been a long sleep, and I was still tired. My thoughts were still buzzing with Gundham, and how strangely he acted.
He was so stiff, unsure... I don't know what could've been the problem! Maybe the arm contact and gazing was too much for him. Maybe he suddenly felt uncomfortable with it. I didn't want to push him into anything too much, however I did want to ask him about it.

I stayed in bed, laying and staring at the ceiling, weighing my options.
Eventually I decided it could wait until tomorrow, despite my yearning, and I drifted back to sleep.

When I woke up, I checked the time. It was 9am. I still felt tired, but my night was restless with thoughts of Gundham. I'm nervous, I don't want to have upset him or ruined our friendship.
I wearily got out of my bed and dressed myself suitably, then proceeded to make my way out of my cabin and to the hotel. I hadn't been told to go there, but I decided I couldn't be the only one who fancied having breakfast there at 9 in the morning.
Nobody was outside of the cabins, so I walked there soundlessly.
When I got in, however, I heard chattering upstairs. Was everyone up there?
I raced upstairs to find that I was correct. Everyone was there, though some more distanced than others. The people sitting together included Ibuki, Akane, Nekomaru, Teruteru, Kazuichi and Sonia. Some of the people sitting on their own were Fuyuhiko, Chiaki and... Gundham.

My head spun again. I must've been standing there for quite a while because I started to gain some stares, one of which was from Gundham. I hurriedly waddled over to his table, feeling rather awkward.

"Are you alright?" I spluttered as soon as I sat down.
He stared at me without answering for a moment, and I was so sure that he didn't want to talk to me.
"I am fine. Apologies about last night, mortal. I... just..."
He didn't seem to know how to finish, so I nodded patiently.
"It's no worries..! As long as you're alright.."
He nodded.
Neither of us had food, so we kind of just sat there for a bit. I wanted to know what had put him off, so I didn't make the same mistake again, but he didn't seem to want to talk about it.
He must've been psychic, as he randomly picked up from where he left off.
"It was the physical contact. I am really not used to it, and I do not want to... poison you, Y/N. If I am honest, if my touch wasn't poisonous, I might not mind engaging in physical affections with you."

What was he on about? If he was poisonous, I surely mustn't be alright by this point. I assumed this to be an excuse. Maybe he didn't know how? Perhaps he didn't get so much affection as a child.
"...perhaps we can have a look at that 'poison' back in the cabins?"
It sounded like I was suggesting something dirty. As much as I would not mind doing something dirty with Gundham, I'm simply not ready for that kind of interaction.
Gundham seemed to get the gist though and nodded, so we made our way to my dorm.
I don't know how it happened, but now I'm on my way to teach Gundham Tanaka, of all people, how to be affectionate.
He seemed a little nervous on the way, he was hiding his nervousness by taking long, proud strides and trying to seem confident. I saw right through him.
I must've been fantasising a bit on the way, as it seemed to take a lot longer than usual just to walk a very small distance.
First I was thinking about simple affections. Hand holding, hand kisses, cheek kisses, hugging, simply gazing at one another, stuff like that.
Then I was thinking about less simple affections, like cuddling, kisses on the lips, hair stroking.
Then I thought about properly kissing. Making out.
I couldn't go that far, as much as I wanted to.
But imagine it... a make out session with Gundham Tanaka.
That would be heavenly.

That was then I walked straight into one of the cabin's walls.
I yelped out loud, upset to have such lovely thoughts brought to such a sudden halt, but also upset to he humiliated in front of my apparent crush, because let's face it, there's no doubt that I simp for him at this point.

If he was amused, he made no sign of it.
"Are you alright, Y/N..?!"
He sounded genuine and his voice was full of caring.
How sweet does he get?
I nodded, clutching my head and giggling a bit. I really am a bit of an idiot.
"I was just a bit lost in thought!"
Gundham nodded, saying nothing else.
He probably knows what I was thinking of. I'm probably just as transparent as he is.
I shrugged it all off and casually entered my cabin, followed closely by the forbidden lord of ice.
All I could do now was teach him, I guess! And what a day this was going to be.

hah!!!!! and you're unlikely to get that day foe another month or so (sorry!!!! i have a life)
anyways thanks for reading
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just wanna give thanks for over 1k views on this book though!! i didn't expect very many lol