SAY SOMETHING

THE RAIN

20th August, 2014

If there was one memory I could ever erase it would be today, because today I lost the most amazing person in my life . The skies were crying and the wetness drenched my black cardigan and the heaviness matched the weight my heart was holding .As my eyes travelled through the crowed dressed in black and rested on the brown wooden box in front of me I couldn't stop myself from going way back to the time when I first saw her . It was the same rain ,yet it held the happiest memory I owned and her echoing laughter travelled the distance of 16years and reached me now on this painful occasion where letting go was the hardest thing to do. I bend low and place her favorite white lilies near the box and tears just flow "Ellie I'll miss you , I know you wouldn't want me to go all sentimental so I'll just leave you with this"

When I look up ,I see Nik standing very still with white lilies in his hands looking rather blank and why not because losing a wife is always harder than losing your best friend especially when you hold yourself responsible for her death. I couldn't do anything but give him a sympathetic look and be by his side after all he was my best friend too or maybe more I coulf never tell but for now he really needed me , then slowly as the crowd starts to disperse ,me and Nik don't move because walking away just does not feel right. I raise myself to look at his face, I see the clear pain in his eyes and as the tears trickles down his eyes he bends to put the lilies beside the only love of his life and I stop myself from thinking of how he will never be the same again . He slowly looks up at me with those weak painful eyes and I see him collapse on the inside I bend low and give him a big hug as we both cry together and he whispers in my ear "I lost my other half Kiley" and the pain shoots right through my veins as all the memories move past my mind in full speed I try to hold on to just one but they keep slipping away and between the tears I feel my heartbeat racing . My best friend just died and I held my self to remember that she was and will always be the wife of the only guy I  had  ever loved and I probably always will.