you yell
you shout
you get angry
and yet I love you more than you know
i don't stop you
i don't even blink
and i know I can't shed one tear
if water drips down
you don't even want to talk
you get even angrier
and so I pretend
i pretend everything is okay
waiting for your voice change
mood has shifted
and so i go with it
i pretend that your anger didn't phase me
i fight myself not to shed that dreadful tear
and so i smile with all the pain
the burning in my throat with every word I muster
the heavier breathing to stop the muffled cry
the constant blinking to flick those tears
the clenching of my little hands
how do you not tell?
why do i not do something?
i don't want you to be angry
i love you more than you know
so i take the two personalities you seem to sow
