Cutting And Kidnapped

Chapter 3

Chapter 3:
Kenzie's POV

The hell?! What the hell is Lex holding. "Lex, give me it. Unless you want Cole and Jack to come up here... Your choice," I command, holding my handed expectantly. She doesn't give me it so I call Cole. "COLE!!" I yell at the top of my lungs.

He comes rushing in, like he'll see Lex collapsed on the floor, "Get the bottle from her. She won't give me it."

Once he notices the bottle, he asks nicely, but when that approach doesn't work, he tries grabbing it from her. That doesn't work either, so he grabs her into a hug as I take the bottle. Once I take it, she flinches, it looks as if she's waiting for a punch. Once I read the bottle, I realize that I need to have some space. The walls feel like they're closing in. "I'm going to the park," I mention to no one in particular.

As I leave, Jack stops me. "I'm fine. Just need some space and time to think a bit." He lets me leave peacefully and I decide to sit out front on the step instead.

I take a few deep breaths and realize that all good things must come to an end.

"Kenzie. I'm sorry," Lex has her head down in shame. "I'm sorry I didn't tell you sooner."

I feel bad for reacting the way I did though, so I decide to help. "We're all here for you. All the time. And if you want someone to vent to, talk to me about it. No matter what the problem is, we can always chat," I say in what I hope is a reassuring tone.

"SHUT UP! SUPERMANS HERE TO SAVE THE DAY!" You can count on Cole to lighten the mood.

As we all finish our minor laughing fits, I add, "Just remember Lexy," as I pat her on the back, ready to go to me and Jacks room.

A bit after I get there, I'm in a nice dream where good things always happen. Well they aren't always good, but the best things happen in dreams. Most of the time.
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I'm in a completely empty room. White walls, no furniture, nothing. Just me and blank walls.

As I look at one wall, I see our first kiss. Jack and I before we came official. I still remember that birthday. December 18th of ninth grade. Looking at the wall, I feel the kiss on my lips again.

I look to the wall left of it and see Lex and I in the treehouse by the school... The first time we bonded and became friends. Even though it was pre-k, I was so happy to have a new friend that I knew I could trust. Looking at this wall, I felt the trust.

Left of that wall is Lex introducing me to Cole as her boyfriend. It wasn't too great because when I met him in kindergarten, I felt as if I can't hang around him too much. Things changed so much. When I saw them two walking home hand in hand, I was all happiness and rainbows. I felt that happiness.

The last wall, I just barely got a glimpse of. All I saw was Alexis, Conner, Alex, and I all in the same unfamiliar living room. Before I wake up, trying to fight it so I can stay asleep and find more out, I feel a bit uneasy.
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Once I wake up, I feel Jack, but he's not close enough. I tug on his shirt until he moves close enough for me to tuck my head in his chest. As I breathe in, a wave of calmness wipes over me. "Bad dream, babe?" He murmurs.

Crap... I must've woken him up. Whoops.

"Mhm," I answer, not wanting to talk much more about it.

"Kenz, why don't you tell me about it?" He asks, sitting up a bit.

As he says that, I try to go back to dreamland, but I can't. So I do the next best thing: pretend to sleep. He'll know, but I won't have to answer the question because he'll leave me alone.

As he lays back down, giving up, I reposition myself with my head on his chest. "Love you babe," he murmurs before going to sleep again. Damn I love him. I have no clue how life went on without him. It's like he's my oxygen and I need him to live. What would I do without him? 'You'd still live life,' my inner bitch snaps. Damn my bitchiness. She goes against me.

After a few more minutes of trying to sleep, I give up and go down into the kitchen. As I walk down, I wonder how much my life has shifted in the past month. If I could only have been a bear and hibernated for the month. Is that too much to ask?

"Apparently it is, Kenz. I don't wanna be in this situation either. But shit happens. You just gotta march right past it," Alexis mumbles the last part. Why she's up, I have no clue. But I'm glad I have someone that I can talk to. Even if she talks to me, it'll have me actually realize how lucky I am. "Kenzie... I have to tell you something..." Lexy says, almost like she's scared to tell me. 'What the hell is she hiding? Find out, you stupidass!' My inner bitch is way too, well, bitchy.

"What is it, Lex?" The only time I ever call her Lex is when I'm either scolding her for being stupid, which, surprisingly, isn't often. Or if she needs to come out and say something. I sometimes call her that just to see her tense up a bit because she's wary of being called Lex. After a few moments of silence, I add, "Lexy, you can tell me anything."

She huffs and then caves in a bit, "Fine. But you have to swear to not tell anyone. Not even Cole or Jack. Yes, it's that bad."

"Swear on my life," I say, but inwardly I'm thinking, 'please don't be too bad'. With my luck, it'll be that bad.

She gets up and heads towards the bathroom. "I'll be right back," she informs me.

Alexis's POV:

Why the hell was I just about to tell her that I cut myself?! 'I'm so freaking stupid,' I think as I take the razor to my thigh. Although I have a good razor, swiping it in the wrong direction can make a lot of blood run out. 'You're a stupid, worthless, fat, grade-A bitch,' my mind replays when that text came through. 'How much did you gain today? 400? 500?' Another text. I decide to take four strikes. One for thinking about telling her, another for not telling her, the other two for those texts I got this morning. The anonymous texter still texts me, but no one else knows that. Striking my thigh for the fourth time, I look at the blood oozing out and think that the blood is like my feelings. When the blood trickles down, my feelings go with it. It makes me empty. I don't think emptiness is good, but it's better than being racked up with those thoughts. After I pull up my pants so my scars can't be seen, I flush the toilet to make it seem like I went to the bathroom. As I wash the razor, I think about how Kenzie will think I'm washing my one hand not in the cast. Oh how so wrong she is.

Walking out, I think of a good excuse for two reasons. Not telling her and why I was in there for so long. Light-bulb! I put on my best sick look and hold my stomach. "Sorry Kenz. I don't feel good, I think I'm gonna lay down for a bit."

I walk up into the guest room for the night. I just want a night where I don't have to be scared of someone finding out. I know Cole is definitely suspicious, considering he felt right over them a few times, but he never questioned it. I think he practically knows already because he knows about the antidepressants now.

Kenzie's POV:

She's hiding something. I know Lexy and that wasn't her. She isn't herself. At all. I huff as I make hot chocolate and think about what to do to help her.

Cole. Maybe he knows something. He has to. Unless I'm just being paranoid about this whole thing, I'm pretty sure Lex has been hiding a lot of things from us. I gotta talk to Cole. And soon.

Taking my hot chocolate upstairs, I pass the guest room and see Lexy sound asleep. I wonder why. Instead of making a left to go into my room, I made a right. Straight to Lexy and Coles' room. Walking into the room, I notice he's actually awake. "Cole?" I ask. "I have to talk."

"Is it about Lexy? I don't know, but I have a feeling she's hiding something from me." Oh thank god. I'm not the only one.

"Yeah... I'm kinda worried about her. She wanted to tell me something a bit ago and then she said she didn't feel good. I mean, she wanted me to swear to not tell anyone. Not even you or Jack, so it must've been important."

Cole sits on the bed and says one thing I didn't ever- not in a million years- want to hear. "I think she cuts."
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Cliffhanger! Sorry, I hate when people put cliffhangers *cough* sboogar1218 *cough*. But it was the perfect time to end the chapter!!

~Lexy :)