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- Caitlyn -

3 months. It has been 3 months since Harry started ignoring me. After I found out the bus was gone, I saw on twitter that they went back to England. At first I thought he just wasn't on his phone. After a month, my mom let me believe that he was just buzy. But he did tweet, that was when I knew he wasn't buzy, but he was ignoring me.

I was devastated, really. I felt lonely. Stella didn't talk to me either, after she found out Harry left. I didn't understand her, at all. But it didn't really matter tho.

About a week ago, my mom started complaining about the fact that I needed to go out more, but I wasn't interested. I kept telling people I didn't miss him, but hell, of course I did miss him. After what he did for me, I felt so happy inside, a feeling that I missed.

Yesterday I saw an interview of the boys in England. The moment it started, was the moment I stopped it. I laid in bed the whole day, I didn't eat either. I couldn't stand seing Harry. He did look a bit down, but he was the one who completely ignored me.

Now, I was laying in my bed at 4am, trying to think about anything but Harry. But I couldn't. I just wished he would simply knock on my balcony door, but no, he didn't this time. This time, he won't simply knock on my balcony door, he won't cook in my kitchen in the morning, he won't take me to the beach. No. This time, he wasn't here.

And yet this time, I wish he was.

I wish he simply was.