I can't do this anymore. I can't pretend anymore I'm tired. I want it gone so if you see this I'm sorry. If you are holding this notebook just know that I love you. I want you to know that I tried but I just couldn't do it anymore. This has nothing to do with you but everything with me. I am truly sorry but I have to say goodbye.
To Billie, if you ever read this:
I love you. I truly did you were the first person that made me feel like something. You made me feel at home you kinda were my home now that I think about it. I love everything about you from the shade of your eyes to the small dimple that appeared whenever you smiled. I loved that you tried to help me but it was too late, unfortunately. Don't cry not for me just be happy that I'm better now. I know that's gonna be hard but can you try for me.
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To my parents, if you read this:
I was gonna be nice but I'm dead so fuck it. Fuck both of you truly. Thank you mom for making school your number one priority. Thank you for giving me insecurities I never even contemplated before. Thank you for never putting me first.
Thank you dad for being a homophobic misogynistic asshole. I'm bi by the way. That kinda rhymed and since your small brain probably doesn't know what that is I'll explain. I'm bisexual meaning I like girls and guys just do you know I liked girls more. Oh, and before I forget I'm not Christian and I rather go to hell.
Thank you both for being misogynistic I hope you're proud of the daughter you had you know because I'm dead.
Anyways, back to Billie, I love you. You're the only one I can say that to and mean it. Thank you for being in my life don't cry because you came in too late to save me. I was pretty far gone, to be honest, so don't feel too bad.
I'm not sorry for making this so harsh you both deserve it.
