Hush now {DDLB}

I like you

Owen has been thinking. Not much but enough to get him confused.

Now it was common for littles and their daddy's or mummy's to be in relationships but Owen didn't know that. It was common for littles also just to be the baby in the relationship and have their daddy or mummy to have their own partner. But Owen didn't know that.

He didn't understand what was common, what was normal, what was ok in this world.

So for liking his daddy a little more than he should be, confused him. Terrified him. He didn't want his daddy to be mad at him or hate him. Owen wanted daddy to love him back, forever just like he does. He was too little he thought, too stupid, too dumb, too incompetent.

Owen sat blindly staring up at the open window, light poured in and the wind outside breezed past.

The cogs in his head turned and spun around. Ideas and fantasy's, silly dreams and posterous thoughts. But he knew that none of them would come true, none of them would play out how he wanted them to. Just stuck whirling around his head.

"Baby? Are you okay? You haven't touched your snack." Richy asked quite franticly.

This has been happening quite alot recently. Owen just drifting off into space and not eating his food. It concerned Richy but he could never get a straight answer out of Owen. He also wanted to cuddle afterwards which wasn't bad on its own but now Richy didn't know what was bothering his little boy.

"Dada huggies, huggies dada."

Richy sighed and bent down to pick Owen up, settling him in his arms as he sat down on the couch. Owen put his head in his daddy's chest and started to chew on his t-shirt.

"Baby, can you tell me what's been going on." Richy asked as he stroked his baby's hair.

Owen just shook his head. He couldn't tell his daddy. No way was he going to say that he liked his daddy in that way. He couldn't do that. He'd be punished. He'd seen what the other little boys like him ha done to them for liking someone. It was awful.

Owen had come up with his own idea. To punish himself before his daddy could. Maybe that would make him happy, Owen had thought. So he stopped eating his food. He'd done it loads of times back at the home he used to live at. He was used to the hunger pains, he was used to feeling sick. He was used to it all so maybe he thought, maybe it wouldn't be so bad.

Richy looked down at his little baby. Concern and worry flooded through him. He didn't know what to do, what to say. It was hard to get through to Owen. He wouldn't say anything and it was tuff getting him to talk as it is.

"Baby you trust daddy right?"

Owen nodded.

"And daddy's worried for you."

Owen look up at his daddy now.

"Could you please tell daddy what's wrong."

Owen shook his head.

Richy sighed again. This was going to be hard he thought. He hugged Owen tighter only stopped once he felt Owen wince and draw a breath in what sounded like pain.

Richy was shocked. He didn't realize that Owen was hurt. He sat Owen up a bit so that he could get his purple top with a green dinosaur on off.

"Dada?" Owen questioned.

"Daddy's just checked something, you sounded hurt just a minute ago." Richy explained.

How he didn't see it before, Richy didn't know. It wasn't at all hard to miss however it looks new and couldn't have been done too long ago. Still Richy slapped himself internally for not protecting his baby and letting his guard down. He was being a bad daddy. Obviously not doing enough to make sure Owen was safe. And he hated that.