My Mafia Husband{Liskook FF}

Chapter 33

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I ran downstairs trying not to make any eye contact with anyone, i quickly wear my shoes but then Jimin spoke

"Lisa where are you going?" I froze and whipped my tears quickly before facing him, i gave him a soft smile and said

"I'm just gonna buy something, don't worry i'll be hurry" I said and open the door, "Can i come with you? I mean its 12:05am Lisa" Namjoon oppa offered

"Oh no no I'm fine, i promise i'll comeback" I lied. Its my first time lying to them and it breaks me knowing that i will never comeback, i then went outside while closing the door behind me

My tears continue to fall as i took a step towards the gate. I want to go back, i want to hug him again, but my mind says no even though my heart wants to

I ran as soon as i went out of the house, it was a cold midnight and i saw everybody enjoying Christmas, i could see fireworks while running and i don't know where to go now

Anger and pain is what i am feeling this christmas and the fact that i was so excited celebrating it with them for the first time broke me again. I was supposed to watch the fireworks in Jungkook's arm...

But its too late to comeback now

I dialed Irene unnie's number cause I'm staying at their house tonight, i can't go home to my family knowing that they were lying to me to

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"So it's over? No marriage?" Irene unnie asked worriedly while giving me a hot chocolate. I let out a weak smile and shaking my head as an answer

"You could at least bring a jacket with you, you're freezing" Seulgi unnie said(girlfriend of Irene Unnie) "I dont have time to go back"

"It must be hard for you huh?"

"Of course it is, i-i thought that was it you know" I said trying not to let out a tear again, "That sucks im really looking forward to the weeding" Seulgi mumbles

"Lisa did you let him explain?" Irene unnie asked, "Explain? He don't have to.."

"You could atleast listen to his point of view for a sec"

"Cmon babe he killed your cousin and now your backing him up?" Seulgi asked Irene unnie while circling her arms around her "I am not backing anyone up okay? Its just maybe he has a reason?"

"And besides Luca isn't actually dead so maybe Jungkook didn't kill him" Irene stated, "Or..he just missed a shot and that's why he is still alive" Seulgi said

I don't know where to believe in this two but the fact that he was the cause of my brother's fake death and now he's trying to track him off. I want to find him but i have no money to fly over to china and why is he hiding from me?

"Lisa look the only one that can answer your questions is your brother alone.." 

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Days had passed and its almost new year, no nights have come without me crying in my room listening to our favorite song all over again

"Look at the stars, look how they shine for you" that lyric hits me once again and the fact that i just lost my yellow hurts me even more, I finally have it but then it just slipped off just like that 

I really want him to explain, i want to forgive him but i cant my stubborn mind will always stop me. I miss him everyday, i miss his warmth, i miss his comfort, i miss his soft words, i truly miss Jeon Jungkook 

"Lisa your mother kept calling she's really worried about you" i heard Irene unnie called outside the room, "I-i don't want to go home.." I said and snuggle myself with a blanket

"Okay. Just call me if you need anything okay?"

"Ne unnie" I answered and i heard her footsteps fading away. I slowly stood up trying to see if i could still walk, i slowly walk to towards the bathroom and looked at my reflection

I look like shit to be honest, my eyes are so red from crying, my hair is messed up, i haven't taken good care of myself lately

"What's gotten into you Lisa?" I whispered to myself.

Am i really this stupid? I let myself look like shit just because i was hurt? I am not that low..i don't act like this before

Actually i don't know myself anymore, first i killed somebody, second i fell inlove with the guy who witnessed my brother's death, third i let myself look like trash because i was hurt.

Who am i? Why am i like this? What did you do to me Jungkook?

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It was 7 in the evening when i heard some yelling outside my window, at first i didn't bother to look who it was i just minded my own business

"PLEASE JUST LET ME SEE HER! LET ME EXPLAIN TO HER!" A familiar voice caught me, i froze as soon as i heard his voice once more

"CANT YOU UNDERSTAND?! SHE DOESNT WANT TO SEE YOU!" Seulgi unnie said, my eyes widen as i eavesdrop their conversation

"Please...j-just let me see her" his voice broke, i covered my mouth to stop myself to cry i took a peek from my window and he was kneeling on the floor so weak

His sobs broke me even more, i want to go out to him and hug him so tightly but i couldn't barely move from what i am witnessing right now

He grabbed Seulgi's shirt leaving seulgi unnie in shock, he couldn't look at her with his sore eyes. I couldn't bare seeing him that week i was used to seeing him so cold and strong but why is he like this?

"Please tell her to come home.."

I fall to the ground crying my heart out, regretting what i did to him, regretting what i did to us..

My kookie, my mafia fiance, my yellow..

Im sorry.

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And im sorry for the late update.

Stay safe everyone❤