I want him to take me back so badly it hurts.
I am in physical fucking pain every time I see them together, and every time I think about those moments I happen to see. My chest just heats up and I feel like I'm about to throw up. I'm so damn jealous of her and I hate it. She's everything I can't be. She's perfect for him and all I can do is miss him.
I can't be jealous of her like this. She deserves someone who loves her like he will, especially after everything she's gone through. I'm an asshole to want to take that away from her, aren't I?
All I want is for him to leave her and and take me back but I honestly don't even think I deserve that. I've been a shit person to him and the mistakes I've made are not ones I can easily fix. He would be stupid to take me back, I even said it to him. I just keep hammering the nails to my own coffin.
It's been a month and I still can't figure out how to be happy without him- without someone. I hurts so bad. Why won't it just all stop?
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RandomThis is really just me ranting on the internet in a space where people are less likely to bully me for my opinions. Read at your own risk, because I do get kind of personal and kind of political sometimes. Includes: -shitty life drama -me complainin...
