I want you but my hands are tied....

Michael's Thoughts and Donny's Trauma

Michael continues to roll around and entwine his fingers in the fabric letting his thoughts overtake everything else.

Michael's pov
I thought he hated me...
He hit me and kicked me and scratched at me but Diana says we're meant to be.How is that so.. I've always been brought up to put food on the table and marry the woman of my dreams.I'm going against the patriarchy.To be honest I'd never really cared much for it anyway.

Maybe there is something between me and Donny.

But him,touching me like that when I wasn't ready, shame on him.Well I guess it did get the ball rolling with Diana confessing family secrets to me.Without the secrets exposed I'd probably be just as clueless.

We'll have to see what Donny thinks about this whole ordeal before I ponder on anything else.

No one's pov
Donny wondered around the garden asking himself why he did that. Why he had to touch Michael. Why he felt the need to do.He'd never felt so drawn to someone in all his life and he'd had a few flings in his time. Michael must feel pretty special to him.'No...we're...we're supposed to be partners in song...that's it...but he felt so good against me and his cute little butt fit nicely in my hand', Donny breathes,carressing his arms as the wind hit them.'I...I need a walk',Donny sighed,walking out of the gates to the house and down the street.He'd never even set foot outside the gates since they'd been here,this was all new to him.Putting a hat and glasses firmly on,he decided to go to town.

The streets were quite lively and market stalls were all set up in lights and signs for advertisment.Donny decided to make a pitstop at the town to keep his mind off the sixteen year old back at the house.He stopped at the watches,studying their pro's and con's.Merill's birthday was coming up soon and he wanted it to be a day he could remember.Rose gold was his favorite colour for watches.'Hey do you have any rose gold coloured ones',Donny asked the man behind the table who was too busy shouting about his products to even acknowledge the young lad.'Em excuse me',Donny said again a little louder. The man was still too preoccupied.'EXCUSE ME',Donny shouted gaining not just the salesman's attention but everyone else's too. That was the last thing he needed.

'No need to shout',Said the salesman.
Donny rolled his eyes at the man's hypocritical nature but decided to shake it off.Anything is better than  getting recognized,so many people around here,he could easily be mobbed.

'Yeah I have some...but they £40 each,you got that kind of money ',The guy smirked, obviously trying to get a rise out of his customer.'Yep I've got the money',Donny smiled,though it didn't reach his eyes.'Here I got Digital Watches,Hybrid Watches,Casual Watches and Quartz Watches in rose gold but the hybrid are new so their £70',The guy says.'Okay,I'll take a hybrid one then,it looks very efficient',Donny smiles, reaching into his pocket,pulling out his wallet.'You'll really buy one of my watches,no matter how much shouting I do no one notices my booth',He sighs.
Donny gives him a sympathetic look before passing a 50 and a 20 to the man.His eyes lit up slightly as he held the money,giving Donny a smile and a new hybrid watch for his brother.

He began to make his way further around.'Well,that emergency money was used well',He says to himself.The seventeen year old turned the corner but a visual picture of his family home flashed through his mind.A heavy feeling caught his heart as he continues to walk about causing him to turn around and run towards the only place he knew around here. For whatever reason he did not know.
Finally reaching the door,he slowly opened it,only to find Diana talking on the phone.'Getting all worked up for nothing',Donny sighed,as he began to walk up the stairs,only for Diana to beckon him over.'Donny something has happened',Diana sighs as she passes the phone to Donny.

'Hello',Donny says,as he began to shake,realizing something was really really,wrong.'Hello Donny, it's mother here... something has happened to Merill',Olive whimpers across the phone.'What's h-happened',Donny sighs,as he began to hyperventilate.Before he could feel any other emotion he began to feel lust as he felt Michael cuddle up to him.,calming him a little.'He...he's had a heart attack...from stress',His mother whispers,letting out little sobs.'What',Donny says helplessly.
'Doctors are doing the best that they can... he's stable that's what I want you to know....he wants you to stay on the tour',She says.'But....i have to be there for Merill',Donny whispers,tears prickling his eyes.'Merill will be fine,Donny...he says the one thing he wants you to do is finish this tour and get your big break',She says,sniffling a little.'But Mu-',Donny sighs.'Do it for Merill,Donny,do it for Merill,I know you can...we all believe in you',Olive whispers before saying goodbye and hanging up.

'What am I to do Mike',Donny whispers as Michael continues to hold onto him,putting his head on his shoulder.'If you really wanna go home Donny you can...but listen to other voices on the matter to',Michael says giving Donny a small smile.The seventeen year old says nothing but continues to stare into the sixteen year olds eyes.'Thanyou',Donny sniffs.'I'm always here for you Donny',Michael whispers.

Both of their faces so close they could feel eachothers breath on their skin.'Sorry for being such a bad roommate',Donny whispers,his nose touching Michael's.'Sorry for not listening to you',Michael whispers back,making Donny crack a smile before stroking Michael's cheek.'I know how hard it can be,I've been there',Donny smiles.'So much has happened,so much has been said...but I know I really want to kiss you right know',Michael whispers,their lips brushing against eachother.'Are you sure',Donny whispers as he slowly puts his hands on Michael's hips.Michael slowly nods his head before Donny closes the distance between them,their lips crashing together like the glistening sea moving against the rocks.