I want you but my hands are tied....

Not Keeping It In The Family

Michael's pov
Donny has been going round to so many photography places.He wants to see if he can find this guy.I personally don't think he works at any photography places....that it was just and idea in his twisted mind but Donny has his heart set on finding this guy so I and him,can be at peace.I don't even think Donny knows what he's looking for if I'm being honest.Just walking around,pretending he's doing a photoshoot when really he's spying on everyone.Wanting to get to the bottom of something that literally no one but us and our abuser knows about.
Everytime,he comes back to the house more annoyed than he was the day before.Diana doesn't question it and just calls it hormones.We've sorta becomes detectives,trying to solve a top-secret crime.I beg and beg Donny each day to let me tell someone...that I can't suffer alone.He's got it into his head that everyone is against us when that's truly not the case.

He won't even cuddle with me at night anymore,he just sits there.... I'm worried that these problems with not finding our abuser is slowly rotting away at him. I want to find that horrid man so bad.We can get him off the streets.But I also want the old Donny back.I feel like I'm loosing him.
'Michael come on there is a photography place that I've not been too...he might be there',Donny says,but I let out a long deep breath.'What's wrong...your the one who wanted this guy off the streets',Donny snaps, pointing out the window.I shuffle my feet awkwardly before making eye contact with him.
'Donny...I want to find this guy as much as you do but trying to find him by memory is not the way...a-and it's changing you...of course what's been exposed has hurt us but we can't change ourselves...we can't give in to the dark Donny',I cry,shaking a little from my sudden outburst.'He may not even be around anymore....it was four fucking years ago',I groan,putting a hand to my head at thinking all this was for nothing.

It was silent for what felt like forever until I felt his hand slip through mine.'I know he's alive and I know he's near I've always felt it but...I'm sorry for putting you through all this... searching for a week when I could of just told someone and we could of had help',Donny whispers,wrapping his arms around me as I lay my head on his shoulder.'If we want to figure this out we have to think properly and it's only another week till we're back home',I mumble.'Do you remember how we even ended up in that situation Donny...how did he even get in the studio...we locked it for more privacy from what I remember',I sigh in his arms.'Maybe he took a key',Donny breathes,ruffling his curls.'Or someone gave him one',I mutter,making Donny give me a startled look.

'No one would be so cruel as to do that to a child though right...no one would allow that to happen',I grimance,wrapping my arms around myself.'Maybe...if they wanted something in return',Donny sighs,staring into space.I begin to think until I hear the boy I've let spoon me at night let out a snort and a sigh before walking over to me once again.'Mike...no one would do that...the guy just got a key inside',Donny soothes,cupping my cheek with his hand softly.'I just want to make sure we've fully thought about this...know who not to trust',I sigh,holding onto his wrist as his hand still lingered on my face.'The first thing we're going to do...is tell... it's the only way to get better in the mind',Donny whispers,taking his hand away from my face.I nod in agreement.

Donny's pov
What Mike said really got in my head...What if someone planned it! What if someone we know planned what happened to us.What if the person who did it was someone we thought we could trust.Oh so many questions....but not enough anwsers.
But this was over four years ago...so many people have just gone in and out if our lives.What if the culprit isn't even around anymore.

I was happy when I demanded that we tell someone. It's obvious I've been in a slump and I needed to get out of it as soon as humanly possible. If we tell...maybe the uncertainty and pain of the memory will die...
I needed to tell someone and the only people I want to confide in are...my parents.But they've got so much problems with Merill and what happened to Marie when she was a child.They won't want me bringing up more bad memories and news.
Urgh I don't know anymore....

No one's pov
Michael and Donny continuously spoke about who they're going to tell.
Families or police. At first the couple who weren't exactly official but looked it,decided on police. They thought it would be quicker to find the man by telling the experts,than to tell their families and give them nothing but worry. But that quickly changed when the duo dressed in strange clothes,hats and sun glasses stepped into the police station.They couldn't take the pressure of what they had to actually remember. Only one lad knew what they went through but knew nothing about the man himself. They quickly left,pretending they'd forgotten visiting day was next week.

Diana's pov
The boys have been acting really strange these days. Usually their being their cute little selves,trying to flirt with one another without me noticing.But they just act tired... depressed nowadays.
Maybe I should get their mothers on the phone....neither of them have spoken to their mothers in a while.

No one's pov

Diana woke up early and freshened up before calling the boys out of their beds.She was happy to see things back to normal.With Donny's arm slung securely round Michael's waist,his chest against Mike's back.They really were the perfect couple.'Come along boys,got a surprise for you',Diana smiles,guiding the boys downstairs as music was playing and a phone lay on the side.

Now if you feel that you can't go on
Because all of your hope is gone
And your life is filled with much confusion
Until happiness is just an illusion
And your world around is crumblin' down
Darling, reach out, come on girl, reach on out for me
Reach out, reach out for me
I'll be there, with a love that will shelter you
I'll be there, with a love that will see you through
When you feel lost and about to give up

Michael began dancing to the music making Donny and Diana laugh.'Come on Donny...the radio's not been on in ages..we been so busy',Michael smiles taking Donny's hand.'And if you feel that you can't go on',The boys sang,spinning around the room.And soon or later Diana managed to make both boys temporarily forget their troubles.Bringing them out of their sadness.

'Oh and I have another suprise',Diana beamed walking towards the  phone.'Wow a phone',Donny mocks,making Michael chuckle.'No not the phones themselves...who will be calling',Diana laughs,as the phone suddenly starts ringing.

'This feels like the start of a horror movie where the unexpected caller calls the house',Michael laughs,making ghost noises.'Stop your messing,see who it is guys',Diana beams,clapping her hands together.Michael picks up the phone giving Donny a confused look before quietly saying hello.'Hello Michael oh my how I've missed you...took me forever to find the home number for the house but Diana helped me',Katherine squeals across the phone making Michael smile.'I miss you too mother',Michael smiles,his eyes glistening as he thought how much he really did miss her.He felt Donny put a kind hand on his shoulder.Michael gave it a little peck before explaining about how much fun,things had been.'Ooh look who else is here,put Donny on the phone Michael dear',Katherine smiles through the phone.

Michael passes the phone to Donny.'Hi mum',Donny smiles. Michael could tell Donny was thinking about telling but the words were getting caught in his throat.It was obvious neither child could let out a secret like that, especially across the phone and such a sad and crazy one at that.
Soon the conversations were over and the best songs had ending. The duo were back at square one.

'We should of said...it's wrong for us to carry this alone...if we want the guy in jail we need to tell someone',Donny shouts, obviously frustrated.'I was going to but when I heard her voice it reminded me of how things used to be...I didn't have an easy life but it wasn't the worst....now I have this on my shoulders aswell and I don't know where to put it...I can't believe this happened to us Donny',Michael cries.He put himself against the counter as tears began streaming down his face.'Everything will come to a happy end',Donny whispers,wrapping his arms around Michael as he too tried to hold in his unshed tears.'What are we going to do...who can we confide in...who can help us',Michael cried, clinging onto Donny.

'Help with what',Diana smiles,walking into the room.Suddenly she felt anxious as both boys looked like they were about to faint.