True black love

Foolish

I'm about 3 months pregnant and it's finally winter break what's the worse that can happen right. My mom has been talking to me more than my dad like he can't stand me and it hurts me, my brother tells me it's going to be okay you know your his little girl so of course he's devastated by the news but give him some time. Lena and Rosa went home for Christmas so it's only Shawn and I but we spending it with his family. Shawn has been so helpful through all of this and is always making sure me and the baby are fine and I love that about him. I decided to head to the mall with my cousins Tina and Leah to find some Christmas gifts and things were going well ,Leah asked how you feeling I'm like I'm feeling good just some days I feel down and out because I feel like I disappointed our family, Leah then tells me girl you're not you are doing better than most because at least you waited till you got into college. As much I love Kendall and all I wish I waited and got to experience a lot of things you have. You are going to be an amazing mommy and don't forget that.  It made me smile and felt better about what was going on. As we walked into Bloomingdales I decided to go look at some baby clothes to get an idea of what I would want for my shower, that's until I saw Bubbles and Andrew and I'm like oh great. They approached Tina and I and said hey bibi and I noticed she had a baby bump And a engagement ring, I said oh congratulations you too how far long are you? Bubbles said  6 months we are having twins. I was happy for them but I started thinking about when I was having his baby, Andrew said yeah I can't believe I'm be a dad for the first time. My heart wanted to drop but instead I said awe that's good for the both of you. After we walked away I went into a dressing room and started to cry ,Tina looked at me and said that's Andrew and I Said yeah but I told her we'll talk about it later. After some shopping we headed to their house and ordered some Chinese food, I haven't seen Kendall in months and i have him a big hug and said wow your almost as tall as mommy I laughed.  once I headed to their room I filled them in all that has been going on, Leah said "girl... I am so sorry you dealt with that but you need to tell Andrew what happened and how you feel they was right. As we were eating and chatting I texted Andrew telling him we need to talk so we met up at Dunkin Donuts, I was very nervous but I knew what had to be done. 

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I sat there drinking my blueberry coollata and eating my Boston crème donut when he came to my table, my heart was racing as I said Hi Andrew he said what's good Bianca. I said "Andrew there is something you need to know, during my freshman year of school I was pregnant by you. Andrew said " how? when?" I said shortly after we started dealing  with each other and I forgot to pick up my birth control pills and then three weeks later I found out I was pregnant. Andrew was like then WHY YOU KILLED MY CHILD THEN", I looked at him and said " What the fuck you said? your child, first the fuck off at first I was scared and was going to tell you but then I caught you sleeping with that bitch you making a mom and wife and I had to do what was best for me I was 18 and fucking scared so yes I HAD AN ABORTION but you know I am glad I did because you don't give a fuck about anyone and I bet you only gave Bubbles the baby and ring is because she is a stupid ass bitch, I am glad I met Shawn and starting a family with him. If Andrew wanted to fuck me up he would've but all he could've said was "well congrats to the both of you... but just remember Bibi this could've been us and you know I would forever love you". Me confused I headed home and as I was showering I'm thinking how would I tell Shawn, when I got to bed Shawn was just coming in from work and that's when I noticed he didn't want to kiss me. He said "you was pregnant with Andrew baby before....."