[ me & you ] Suna Rintarou

11: the end

who was this? is this who he was drinking with last night? GOD of course...too good to be true.

I put his phone down and go to the edge of the stairs

"Suna! I'm going to go to the bathroom I'll be right down!"

"okay!"

I go to the bathroom, this is where I go when my head starts to overthink, I don't want to cry because if I do I won't be able to stop. I take deep breaths in and out.

come on Y/N

Don't let this get to you.

he was drunk, stop jumping to conclusions.

I open the door and go downstairs

you have to act like everything is normal Y/N, if there was someone else he wouldn't be here with you right now.

I walk slowly to the kitchen.

I don't speak and turn on some music

Love Is Only A Feeling by Joey Bada$$ plays

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'look, I love her curves but what's more preferred?
is the way she articulates words
Can't help observe and stir, when she in the mall
Maskin' the massacre while she fixin' her hair
I mean she so perfect in her own little world'
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Suna can't tell that something is bothering me, but today is christmas I can't let this get to me.

"hey can you get some plates out for us?"

When should I bring this up to him? or should I bring it up at all?

"yeah sure"

he sets out the plates and I start laying the food we made onto the plates.

god why do these songs always play at the wrong time.

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'you're the only reason I be stayin' here
Wanna paint a picture, let's make it clear
The future so bright baby, race you there
Love is only a feeling'

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my body is getting warm

GOD

WHY NOW

I drop what i'm doing, grab my phone and run to the bathroom.

"hey where are you going?"

i'm in too much pain to answer right now, I make it into the bathroom and lock the door, I feel tears fall from my eyes, I skip the song that's still playing from my phone.

Bubble Gum by Clairo plays

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'sorry I didn't kiss you
but it's obvious I wanted to
bubble gum down my throat and it's a curse
But my luck couldn't get any worse'
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I try to stop the crying with slashing water in my face, I slow down my breathing.

*knock knock*

"who is it"

"Suna"

"um give me a minute i'll be right out"

"Y/N open the door please"

"Suna i'll be right out just give me a minute please"

"Y/N...Please just open the door"

he sounds worried and sad, I give in and open the door.

My face and shirt all wet, my eyes a tint of red.

"you saw.."

"yeah"

I have to ask him now or i'll just get hurt in the future.

"Suna if you have someone else, please don't continue to mess with my feelings"

"Y/N if I had someone else I wouldn't be here with you right now"

"then who was that? who was the girl on your phone? why does she miss you?"

"I was at a party last night, she was on me but I wasn't interested, Atsumu probably gave her my number because he's fucking idiot and doesn't think with his head"

My head fell.

Why do I let my thoughts get to me all the time.

"I'm sorry Suna, I'm not your girlfriend, I shouldn't have been snooping through your phone"

"Y/N, stop saying your not my girlfriend"

I picked my head up, he looked upset.

"am I your girlfriend?"

"you have been since I saw you in the airport, I knew you would be mine and I would do anything for that to happen"

I was lost for words.

Arms tonite by Mother Mother plays

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'I fell in your arms tonite
I fell hard in your arms tonite
It was nice
I died in your arms tonite
I slipped through into the afterlife
It was nice'
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"our song"

He smiled and got close to me and held me, he hummed the song.

"me and you"

I repeated him.

"me and you"

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A/N:
THANK YOU SO SO MUCH FOR READING <3
but this isn't the end of this story ;)
i'm planning a second book connected to this one..
A SEQUEL
until then I hope you enjoyed <33