Reiner x depressed reader

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I woke up early for some reason . I couldn't move I rubbed my eyes and turn on the light . I saw Reiner sleeping on me still . He was snoring softly while he would tighten his hands around my body .I turned my light off and I heard him grunt . He moved his head a bit and I played with his hair till I fell asleep. I couldn't sleep for the rest of the night . I ended up falling asleep after a few hours . I woke up again a few minutes later Reiner was still asleep. Today I had kitchen duty so I had lunch and dinner and cleaning and training so I didn't have to wake up early but Reiner had training that's it . I saw the door open so I closed my eyes but left them opened enough to see it was the girls . The sunlight made Reiner turn his head towards the wall and tighten his grip . They all have a small aw . I move a little bit , then Reiner sighed heavily. They all sat in Sasha bed or on the floor waiting for us to wake up while they they where eating bread from yesterday because breakfast was in a hour or two. The sunlight hit my face so I woke up a bit , then acted like I just now woke up . They all smirked at me and I turned on my light and moved up to sit up Reiner got up a second to grab my waist and lay on my thighs. We all made small talk . Until Reiner woke up . He rubbed his eyes and looked up at me and smiled " morning beautiful." I blushed and all the girl made a loud aw noise. Reiner not knowing the were here looked at them and covered his mouth as he turned away from them . Yrmin got up and poked him with her boot . " Hey Reiner get off of her you gotta get ready and do your morning work !" He had breakfast apparently. " oh fuck off Yrmin I don't have to listen to you ." He turned over and squeezed my waist . Yrmin and nine grabbed me by my wrist then I whined in pain . That cause them to let go and Reiner to sit up and grab me . He looked at my arms making sure I was ok ."I'm ok Reiner they didn't know ." He sighed letting go of my arms . " I have to go y/n I got to go get ready ok ?" I nodded and was about to give him back his shirt but he pulled it down . " keep it y/n , I did it looks cute on you ." He walked off waving bye to me . I closed my door and started to change when the girls all asked the same thing " so what was Reiner talking about , what do we not know y/n ?" I looked them all they all had the same worried face .... " it's nothing you don't need to worry he is helping me ." I said without looking at them I took of his shirt to put on my shirt but before I could grab my shirt Annie grabbed my arm and turned me around . I was there in my bra my arms showing and my stomach. The girls looked at me and almost cried , except historia and Annie , they cried . " I said it was nothing ." I pulled my arm away putting my shirt on . " bullshit y/n what the hell is going on with you !?" Mikasa and Yrmin asked . I turned to them and sighed . " two nights ago I was on the wall I jumped and Reiner was following me , he jumped and managed to get me back to the top of the wall .... I ended up ranting to him about my life last night why I do this . It's not easy to stop but I'm 4 days clean , so I'm fine . To put it simply I just want to die ." They all looked at me with heavy tears in most their eyes . I finished getting dressed and walked out of my room . I was on the verge of crying when I ran into someone. It was Marco, he had dropped all the bread for tonight. I helped pick the bread up , asked me why I was crying. I told him I was just upset about my family . He told me he was there for me and walked off with the bread . He's a good kid , he makes sure Jean is calmed . I found out that we were the same age but I'm older by a month so I make fun of him by calling him kiddo . I walked off and felt something in my pocket it was a note . It was from Reiner, the note said a few words . " y/n meet me tonight at the lake ok ♡ Reiner ."
He could not write notes at all lol but it was nice I put it back in my pocket .
I got to the kitchen and rolled up my sleeves and put on my headband to keep my hair of my face . When out of no where Eren showed up with Reiner in the kitchen. I looked at them and they asked me why I was here I told them I come in early to make the bread for today . They helped me make it Reiner and Eren kept fighting over the doe . It was funny I managed to finish two days worth of bread , but I forgot to count so this would be good for us .
I saw captain mike and ran after him . He greeted me and sniffed my hair like normal . He said I smelt like Reiner and bread I laughed at that it was funny . He was my best friend. He would help train me and in return I would help him out with paper work . Today I learned how to break my arms from someone holding them he tied them and watched me struggle before he gave me a pointer tip . " take your thumbs and tuck them under your hands and pull hard " I ended up breaking free many times . He said that if I could sneak him some cake he wouldn't make me do paper work . I went to the kitchen and Reiner was just there
I told him I forgot something he smiled at me and told me I couldn't steal the cake . But I took a peice and ran threw the door he chased me down till I hid behind mike . Who took the cake with one hand and told me to run with a hand motion . I bolted Reiner right he hind me I made it to the lake before him and hid under a tree . I waited he was above me looking he called my name out a few times . Then he left I walked out from under the tree to see him sitting on the only exit . I gave up in defeat and showed him my hands , he realized I stole the cake for mike . We walked back to the camp .
Dinner came faster today than it did before , Sasha and everyone else were gobbling down while I just kinda sat there. I ate a small piece of bread and drank a lot of water . Sasha asked me if I was gonna eat the rest of my food I was about to say she could have it when Reiner came and shoved a potato in her face and stuffed my face with a piece of fruit . Everyone stared at Reiner , as he stood up and waited for me to eat my food . I took a bite but he wasn't happy with that so I ate the rest of it . He smiled and sat back down I felt sick . I felt like that was to much . I went to drinking water by myself. Everyone went back to normal things Sasha stealing my bread as I wasn't looking . I left before everyone else and went to my room for the night . I tried to go to sleep but couldn't. It felt empty. I took of my boots and my belts and put on Reiners shirt and some of Sasha shorts she stole from her home . They were big on my legs they made me feel short . I was kinda hungry so I started to get up and go back to the loud cafeteria. Everyone looked at me as I walked in there with my arms covered with tape . I sat down next to Sasha and laid on her as I ate some bread . Sasha offered me some meat . I was actually eating I was actually wearing normal clothing everyone looked at me , it had been for ever since I ate a full meal and wore normal clothes. Reiner kept covering his face , if he had long hair I wouldn't be able to tell if he was blushing but i saw his ears which were red . He looked at me and I smiled . His friends started to make fun of him . They all started to point out the fact I was in his shirt and that he was wearing the necklace I made out of the wood from the table . I felt so full I felt fat . Reiner watched me as I walked it with Annie and Sasha , he looked at me with a don't leave me look . I walked to my room and Sasha smirked at me . She asked what was that was about  . " Reiner wouldn't stop looking at you ." She said while looking at you smiling. It was nothing I figured he would have yelled at me for not eating. So I decided to try to eat I mean your skinny and you eat all the time ." She started to laugh ." Y/n I eat a lot because I never know when I'll die , but just work out with me dude ." I smiled at her and she gave me a hug and said she was gonna go talk to hange . When she opened the door she saw Reiner about to knock on the door . " oh um sorry Sasha is y/n in there she held the door opened enough for him to see her and her only . " why does it matter you gonna yell her , she ate , you saw her !?" I could see what face he was making but I heard what he said " huh wait I came by to hang with her I wouldn't yell at her ." Sasha didn't believe him and continued to als him questions but before she asked anything else I pulled her back and opened the door for him to come inside. " Sasha go talk to hange ." She hugged me and looked at Reiner and blew a raspberry. " Bye love birds!" She said as she slammed the door shut . I looked at him and sighed he laughed at it .