Reiner x depressed reader

Falling tower

It was a few days after the female Titan was captured it was Annie . That's makes sense that's probably why I'm still alive . Bodies where still being found as homes were being fixed . Eren had been taken somewhere and Annie was still in stone for all I knew . The whole thing was depressing. Bodies were being found everywhere, I was finding people who were still alive or really hurt . Most were kids asking for their moms . Hange and Levi were on a roll , Levi was cleaning as much as possible hange was trying  to find missing people. It was a long day . I wasn't hungry, so I walked outside , as the air filled with ash . It was sad , everyone was quite that day .
I was in my room with Sasha talking about today when our door was slammed opened it was commander Erwin we sat up in Salute . Apparently there was a hole in the wall , mike and his team had been sent out I was sent with hange . We had to find the hole before Titans showed up . After searching for hours we ended up finding other people. There was no hole . We had gotten report that nanabas team was missing. We moved forward to find them .
I stopped my horse and everyone else did as well , if it weren't for the moonlight I wouldn't have seen that Titan , it was covered in fur , it was bigger than a normal Titan but it looked at us and just walked away . Hange wanted to go see it and test on it . But we ended up moving forward . There was a tower , with Titans that were moving . I was confused as everyone else was . We all followed over there to see a Titan climb the wall and throwing peices at the Titans as the tower fell reiner , Connie , historia, and bretholt grabbed onto the Titan as it jumped . There was a bunch of smoke , we pulled over our horses and Eren ran over there to give Connie , bretholt and Reiner their gear . I gave them horses . I found out that I had lost mike and his team . No more stealing cake then . Hange said as we rode our horses that there was no hole . Reiner and Connie were confused, they asked how is that possible. I looked behind me and saw Yrmin passed out . To think more friends are Titans . We got back around sunrise . We sat there talking and trying to understand why there was a report for a hole being in the wall when there wasn't one. I stood there wondering trying to understand but then I saw Reiner and Bretholt talking to eren . Bretholt looked at Reiner with a scared look. Reiner saw me and waved me over I walked over there and they continued to talk . " I'm the Armored Titan and Bretholt the colossal." Me and Eren both looked at him in disbelief . I understood why Bretholt was looking at him like that . I backed away a few feet before Reiner grabbed my arm . I was scared . " Y-you're what R-Reiner ?" My voice was shaking I didn't believe him . I didn't want to believe him I pulled my hand away and grabbed Eren,Mikasa saw had heard what he said . She looked pissed she looked hurt . In a flash she pushed me and Eren out of the way as she cut Bretholt and Reiner. It all happened so fast , before I knew it I was grabbed along with Yrmin by Bretholt or the Colossal Titan and Eren was grabbed by Reiner or the armored Titan . I kicked and scream as Bretholt held me . Reiner jumped down the wall and I saw eren turn into his Titan . None of the other people could get to me or Yrmin . The smoke burned me as he let off steam . I was able to see the fight between eren and Reiner. Eren managed to break a bit of his armor . Then Reiner dragged eren threw the ground right under Bretholt as he screamed . My ears hurt I managed to free my hands to cover my ears when all the sudden we fell onto of Reiner. I blacked out . It was so hot I started to feel trapped. That's when I woke up next to Yrmin and Eren . Yrmin had no leg and was growing it back . Eren arms were trapped and mine and his gear was gone . I just sat there and looked at the ground before a Titan jumped at me . I fell backwards before getting balanced . " I'm not moving anymore I'm just gonna sit ." I said calmly talking to my self . Yrmin laughed a bit . " you managed to make me laugh during a time like this ." She said calmly. I wondered why we were here . But Yrmin had took the words out of my mouth before I could ask . " your coming back to our home ." Reiner said calmly. Bretholt was sitting knees to his chest . Reiner and Yrmin started to talk before saying she would go with him if we brought historia. Eren was angry and wanted to murder him but he couldn't talk . I just kinda sat there I mean I could fall back and Reiner would risk his life for me . At least I hope he would . " y/n are you going to come with us or is there anything else you want us to do so you will come ?" I sat there on the tree my hair blew in the wind as I sat there thinking knees to chest . " I want my gear ." Yrmin , eren and Bretholt looked at me all shocked . " I can't give your gear back to you " Reiner said calmly . " why not ?" I asked softly ... he didn't answer for a second " because you'll fly off ." I nodded in understanding. " then who's gonna Carry me ?" I looked at him in the eyes , I was heart broken , to think all the people I've trusted , they were just monsters . Reiner was about to say something but then " I'll take y/n Yrmin can hold on to my back ." Bretholt said while standing up . Now that I think about it Bretholt never talked to me before a few days ago . " I don't want to leave with you reiner ." I said calmly I felt my heart sink . " but you want a life outside of the walls I can give you that life just please come with me , please y/n !" He said , he sounded hurt . " Reiner as much as I want to leave the wall I wanted to be able to come back to the walls if I needed to I wanted to be able to keep contact not be wanted by them for death ." " please y/n ." He sounded more hurt . I was about to say yes when I saw green smoke . They were on their way to save us the scouts were coming to get us . Reiner grabbed eren and took the lead . Bretholt picked my up bridal style and Yrmin got on his back . Reiner looked behind him to see me holding on to Bretholt. He turned around swinging threw the trees " we can't make any stops we have to get going ! BUT YOU PROMISED TO GET HISTORIA!" Yrmin and Reiner were going back and forth when she grabbed Bretholts eyes and covered them so he couldn't see I was trying to move her hands because I didn't want to crash into a tree she let go after seeing historia on her horse . Yrmin ran after historia, causing us all to run after her . She turned into a Titan and grabbed historia. Before I knew Bretholt stopped the gear and Reiner grabbed him as the armored Titan . I let go of Bretholt and stood on a finger of Reiner . I turned to see historia on Reiners head and Yrmin speaking to us threw her Titan form before she was able to pull half of her body out of her Titan . Her and historia basically confessed there love for each other . I called to Yrmin for her to grab my arm . Her Titan held its hand out I climbed onto Reiners head and managed to stand on his nose . " Reiner I don't know if you can understand what I'm saying but you need to go back to the wall . We need to go back . Maybe if you take us back you'll just be asked questions and nothing more ." He kept running Bretholt who now had eren instead of Reiner was attached to his back when Bretholt told Reiner that the scouts were here . He grabbed me by my shirt and crossed his hands I was in one hand as the scouts saw us . Jean and Connie were trying to get me out while Mikasa was trying to cut threw the armor on Reiner . They managed to get eren and me out which cause Reiner to scream for more Titans . Everything was happening so fast Hanes was eaten Bretholt and Reiner were running towards us before eren screamed in pain Mikasa was next his she couldn't move . And out of no where a Titan attacked another Titan . Eren screamed again and Titans attacked Reiner he was throwing them at us . We ended up getting away all but Yrmin . She went with them I rode on my horse . It had been a long day , I'm glad to back in my room . That empty feeling was back . Reiner wasn't coming back neither was anyone else . I missed them , I missed all of my comrades. " I'm gonna skip training tomorrow ." I turned over and fell asleep.