Reiner x depressed reader

Titan

I ended up going to training. I couldn't think right , my head was filled with thoughts my body was hurting, my emotions where all over the place . I lost every round , I was fighting with Jean and he was pretty weak to me but I just couldn't think straight.
" Y/n what's up you haven't been yourself since you know ..." he was talking about Reiner.
" It's nothing just feeling stupid ." I said with a sigh as he helped me back up . Training was over and I was tired and wanted to sleep .
" Hey y/n we all feel stupid at some point don't feel bad over what has happened we have gone threw worst ." He said as he walked ahead of me . I turned to walk to the lake . It was still , then again no one had pushed me yet . It was getting dark but I didn't feel like getting up .Jean came and asked if I was gonna head in and shook my head and sat there . I missed Reiner , I've never felt so sad over someone. I missed him I wanted hold him in my arms again . I wanted to be held by him . I got up and walked awhile before I got to the wall . The wall where Reiner saved me . I still had my gear so I decided to go to the top . I sat down and watched the sun as it had just settled for the night .
A part of me was waiting for Reiner to come and get me . But i wonder what would have happened if I went with him . What would change would the scouts come for me ? Would I be caught and punshied to death ? I was was scared for nothing. I wished he was back with me .I just want to see him again.

I went to the wall , it was a off day but I was lonely. I was in pain , I was on the verge of crying when all the sudden Eren should up .
" Hey y/n how are you holding up ?" I looked at him before answering him .
" I'm fine , I miss them but I'm fine ." I said while wiping the tears that were starting to fall .
" I was gonna go up to the wall what about you ?"
" Oh I'm going to be doing experiments with Hanji and Levi ." He said while running his fingers threw his hair .
" have fun with that then see you at dinner ." He waved by as I turned around to walk away .
No one was around everyone was either doing there own thing or on the other side of the wall doing whatever . I was standing there watching the clouds slowly move . The wind was blowing and the sky was gray . Cold , moist , and the sun was hiding. I was so bored . Thunder and lightning started to happen , I thought it was normal cause it was about to either rain and turn to snow later or storm . But then I saw a Titan running towards the wall . It was Reiner , he slowed down and looked at me from the wall he held his hand out for me to walk on . I looked at his hand before walking on it . He pulled me towards his face I kissed the Titans nose before he put me on his head and sitting down. No one had saw us , it was weird . But I didn't care I wanted to never be alone . We made it to my home the home that was destroyed. He sat me on the wall and berthol hugged me . Annie wasn't there . But a man with glasses and blond hair came up to me and held a hand out .
" My name is zeke , and you are ?" He looked at me and waited for me to grab his hand .
" The names y/n nice to meet you ." I shook his hand . Reiner came up behind me and layer his chin on top of my head while wrapping his arms around my waist .
" I see you meet Zeke ." He said while tightening his grip on me. Zeke let go of my hand and Adjusted his glasses .
" So you know they are the armored and colossal Titan , I'm the beast Titan the one you saw at the castle annnd where is she ah ." He said while looking for something.
" That's peick , she is the cart Titan ." He pointed out a Titan on all fours she looked up at me and said hello . I was shocked she could talk it was weird . I waved at her .
" hello ." She looked at me for a second.
" So what Titan are you ?" They all looked at me weirdly .
" You're a Titan ?" They all said at the same time .
I looked at her is shock . How did she know i never transformed in front of anyone I only did once when I was younger and never again. I even sometimes would forget but would Remember when I got hurt and steam would leave my body to heal .
" I'm a Titan but how did you know ?" She smiled I think I couldn't really tell .
" Steam ." I looked around and saw steam from my wrist .
" shit I forgot to cover that up ."
If I covered up my wounds then it would be fine and wouldn't be steaming but because I didn't I forgot . I normally scar but damn I really messed up now .
" what can you do y/n what are your strengths what Titan are you ?" Zeke asked me all at once .
" i don't know ."
They looked at me and were confused .
" I haven't transformed in forever ."
Zeke looked at Reiner who nodded at zeke .
" Go ahead then ." Before I could ask Reiner what he meant he pushed me off the wall . I panicked and but my hand .
My Titan looked so different it was about as tall as the colossal had long ears , looked similar to Erens .
I looked around it's been forever since I've transformed . I managed to break free and see my Titans body . Peick picked me up by my clothes and sat me closer to the wall . Unlike most Titan shifters I couldn't change unless I was in danger which explains why I never changed in the walls when self harm was my thing . Reiner came down and got me . They all looked at me and zeke walked to me and asked me how I felt about leaving this place and finding out more about my Titan . I didn't know how to feel I was scared but I wanted to know more .
We plan to leave this hell hole and go to a place called Marley . Sounds fun but what about the others ?

HEY GUYS sorry about me not posting so ummm I'm trying to explain the way of the Titan y/n has and um yeh that's hard buuuut , y'all get to leave and go to Reiners home 👏