rumors (jikook)

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Jungkooks pov

I stand on the stage holding the mic. I see jimin staring at me and I bite my lip and then the music starts. I look around and see everyone staring at me and Irene sat with some other girls

I take a deep breath and then start to sing

"Yeah, I wonder if
My name has ever crossed your mind
Even for a second
Know it's been a second
Since we last talked
Or faced each other eye to eye
Know it's been hectic
Yeah, I shoulda said this

It kinda hurts 'cause it's insane
Yeah, we walk by and it's like
I don't even know you
Like I've never met you
I see our pictures on my phone
And question why we didn't try
But we were just habits
Thought we'd always have it

So to my ex-best friend
I thought I'd know til the end
Sorry I know things aren't going as we planned
To my once ride or die
The one who always knew me right
We would swear it'd always end up you and I
We really messed up this time

We really messed up this time

What about all the nights
Where we'd talked about our lives?
We were just wishing
Wish I would have listened

It kinda hurts 'cause it's insane
Yea we walk by and it's like
I don't even know you
Like I've never met you
I see our pictures on my phone
And question why we didn't try
But we were just habits
Thought we'd always have it

So to my ex-best friend
I thought I'd know till the end
Sorry I know things aren't going as we planned
To my once ride or die
The one who always knew me right
We would swear it'd always end up you and I
We really messed up this time"

I make eye contact with Irene and look down. I hand the mic to namjoon, he stops me and lowers his voice "are you okay?" I nod "just made a mistake that's all" I glance at jimin and then sigh and look down "gotta face our problems right hyung"

His eyes widen. I walk to jimin "we should... Talk" he nods, we both walk into the back room and he closes and locks the door and then looks at me "are you pregnant?" I look down and nod "y-yes..." he grabs my hand "and you weren't gonna tell me?" I look at him "I'm scared jimin... If I have this baby then they'll grow up being judged! I don't want the baby to have the same childhood as me jimin!"

I tear up and he moves his hands to my stomach and he then hugs me "hey hey calm down" I grip his shirt and feel tears rolling down my cheeks "I-I don't think having a baby is a good idea" he rubs my back "it'll be alright...if you don't want a baby... Then we don't have to have a baby"

I step back "you aren't angry?" he shakes his head "of course not...its your body... Yes I would love to have a family with you, but if you don't think you're ready then that's fine..." I see sadness fill his eyes "so...you can get an abortion or something..."

There is a knock on the door followed by Irene's voice "kookie....please talk to me... I can help you" I look at the door and then back at jimin

Jimin looks down "I'll let you two talk...I'll get you a drink..." he opens the door and walks out leaving me alone. Irene walks in "kook! Is it true?" I look at her and tears stream down my cheeks "get the fuck away from me" her eyes widen "w-what?"

I growl "you fucking heard me!! Im not in a good mood and see you isn't helping anything!! Stop believing roumers okay?! Barley any of these fucking roumers are real! So stop believing them!!"

She stares at me shocked and I then push past her walking out the room and I see everyone staring at me except for jimin who was looking at his drink.
I bite my lip and then rush out the club

I can't keep the baby... But if I don't... I might lose jimin...