Dear Mikael,
I recently moved in the midst of toxicity. I rather focus on my own than to be dependent upon care of others. There's a lot of enlightenment of having an affair. I know it sounds so desperate but this is the most reliable and trustworthy. This time, I rather trust myself more than anyone. I take responsibility not because I'm wicked one nor unpredictable one. I honestly speaking to myself that I really missed him a lot. But I know he's happy now and I'm willing to be happy too. Regarding on this matter, I know the truth behind. Or something else aiming for it. Thank you for all the efforts.
It doesn't suits me if I continuously connected to them. And that's me, absurdly. I don't know what to do with the fact that I have to go to the point where I can get a hold of the collateral beauty and the reason I ask is that you are the one who is the best way to get a hold of the collateral beauty and the reason I ask is that you are the one who is the best way to get a hold of them.
When she said to you that you should forget the past and start a new life together, I was afraid because it also means forgetting about me. It means, you have to live together like nothing happened. It’s as if I never came and never became part of your life. It simply means we’re over and you’re going to come back to her.
You sent me away when she begged you to come back. You turned your back on me when you saw how wasted she was. You forced me to let go of you when she suddenly appeared out of nowhere. But somehow, I understand why you should do such things to me. I understand how lonely you were without her. And I understand it too why you have to hurt me this bad.
In order to be with her, you have to say goodbye to me. In order to reassure her that you still love her, you have to tell me that you didn’t loved me. In order to make her happy, you have to forget that I was lonely too. In order to make her whole again, you have to break me and forget that I was once the one who embraced you when she abandoned you. I understand why you have to push me away, but it doesn’t mean it never hurts.
I understand because I was only a replacement for her absence and you were only waiting for her to come back before you throw me out of your life. And the day that you threw me out was a very long time. It’s been so long and I’m dying to ask now; have you forgotten me already?
I do understand that.
But I hate that I love you.
From "finally" Whitney
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Fantasy"Everyone has a limit. Self defense isn't murder." Working class waitress Slade finds her life transformed when she marries wealthy contractor Mikael. She settles into an idyllic life and seems to have everything she wants: loving husband,beautiful...
