I wake up groggily without noticing the pieces of paper hovering above me. Earlier this week, I was so full of joy. Now, I just feel bad, tired, and sick emotionally. I haven’t touched my Bible since Sunday and it’s already a Thursday morning. I sigh as Mom wakes me up and I grab the charger for my Blackberry. I rub my face and scratch my head as I stomp out to the dining table. I just felt dead tired. I still thanked Jesus for the food even though I was not very hungry.
I spend 30 minutes in the cool shower and continue on with the usual routine. I realize I am running late and regret taking too long. I quickly put on some skinny jeans and a plain periwinkle shirt which I pair with my brown sling bag from Sunday. I put on my black shiny flat shoes right after I complete my make-up and fix my things. I kiss my parents goodbye and shout an ‘I love you! See you later!’ They tell me to always pray and I realize that I did not even think of Jesus the moment I woke up. I whisper and pray for Jesus to protect me.
I arrive at school and attend all of my classes. I get caught up with different topics and kind-of-forget about my Best Friend. I even say some inappropriate words. I really hate this. I hate how everything can change in only a few days’ time. I hate how I can talk about Jesus and at the same time talk about inappropriate things. I sigh and just stay silent while all of my friends go about their own business. I pray. I have this habit of whispering short prayers to Christ. I easily get pissed at my friends when things don’t go the way I planned too. I also fan girl a lot during these times. I don’t listen to Christian songs in my playlist during these days. Yeah, I consider myself as a bad Christian.
When I get home I cry and sob myself to sleep right after the home works, dinner, and the goodnight kisses and prayers. I wonder if Jesus would want to hear me out. I try though to apologize. I have been disappointing Him too much. Then I slowly drift off to sleep hoping to wake up to another day.
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The Christian Teen
SpiritualBeing a teenager could be very difficult. We get mood swings, face a lot of pressure, and just feel lonely without any reason. Nowadays, teenagers forget the most important thing in life - their faith. They also forget about the One who created them...
