Death Can Wait (Levi x Reader)

Ch.3: Teacup

Levi

He kissed me out of nowhere.

And it wasn't a simple kiss to me, it was my first kiss. He had stolen it and I was glad it was him, it was Erwin.

No one was at school and we were in the restroom, the one that I was supposed to be cleaning. But instead, I was moaning his name while he began to take off my clothes. I soon felt his strong hands unzip my pants and take out my penis. Erwin's hand covered it all and began to massage it.

This felt completely different to me. Because although I had masturbated before, no one has ever done it for me

And as I got lost in his beautiful sky blue eyes, I knew I was going to lose my virginity right there.

Because I had never been with a man before, much less a woman.

Erwin asked me if it was ok, and I said yes.

At that time, I didn't tell him that I was a virgin. Even now, I think that he still doesn't know that I gave my virginity to him, maybe he suspects it, I don't know.

I thought I would enjoy it and I did ... But why did I feel so empty after we finished?

Was it because I lost my virginity at a restroom? Is it because after we finished, Erwin just left?

I don't know ... but even now, even today ...

I still feel dirty.

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"Are you alright Levi?"

Your voice made Levi snap out of his thoughts. He didn't know why he was thinking about that right now, especially since he was with you.

Today, the two of you decided to go on a 'date' Levi didn't want to go but he still felt that he was deeply in your debt.

But it was strange too, you two weren't the best of friends. Just co-workers and you hoped that date could break down a few walls in between you two.

"Yeah, sorry I was just spacing out," he says. "But tell me ... Why did you bring me to this place?"

You didn't want to be obvious, much less rude to Levi. But even he should know that you brought him to this place for obvious reasons.

"Hey, the perfect date is therapy!" you say as you smile. You look around the waiting room, this was a place that you knew very well. You had been here a couple of times before. "Talking to someone is always good."

"I don't need therapy," Levi looks at you and he knew that his response wasn't the best. It wasn't that he didn't need therapy, there was a reason why he didn't want to come but he was very embarrassed to say so.

"... I am sorry, I can't afford a therapist."

He looks away as he didn't want to see you, but you could try and bring him some comfort. Sitting next to him, you gave him a small path on his back and slowly caressed it.

"There's nothing to worry about, everything is paid for!"

"What?" Levi looks back at you in surprise and the moment you meet his ocean eyes, you felt heat going to your cheeks. "...Are you paying this for me too? I don't need you to do that!"

You remember the night you took Levi to the hospital, the day he tried to commit suicide. It was a night you didn't want to remember nor make Levi remember. "Don't worry about it, my friend is a therapist and she won't charge you ... She is really nice, so you will be in good hands."