I Want You Back (Saioma/Omasai)

"Oh my god!"

TW!!
Suicide attempt
Self harm mentions

Kokichi's POV

I started panicking. Teiko's banging only made me more terrified of what she would do. My instincts pulled open the draw that had the pill bottle and blade in it. Trying to grab the pill bottle, I accidentally grabbed the blade instead. It was cold so I instinctively dropped it. It slashed my forearm and my leg as it dropped. Shit! I thought. I threw the blade to the side not caring if someone came in and saw it. I then successfully grabbed the pill bottle. One........
Two........ Three........ Four........ Five........ I excessively took the pills. Too many, but I didn't care. I wanted this anyway. I was going to do it eventually. Theres nothing wrong with doing the plan a bit earlier. I think I must have passed out. Because the moment I was back in reality, I was with Shuichi in a hospital room.

Teiko's POV

"YOU LITTLE SHIT!! OPEN THE FUCKING DOOR!!" bang. Bang. Bang. Thats all I did. I wouldn't stop until Kokichi got out, but Shuichi came rushing back in the room.
"Whats wrong!? I heard you banging all the way down the corridor!" He asked with a worried look on his face. I have to make up a lie!
"I heard Kokichi scream from in the bathroom, so I went to him but he locked the door and I can't get in now! I'm scared Shuichi. Do something!" Heh...... Heh Heh.... Ha ha ha. That should do it. Shuichi grabbed his spare key from inside a draw and quickly unlocked the bathroom.
"Oh my god." That sight.
"Oh my god!" He just lay there.
"KOKICHI!" It's not a sight you would want to see again. We rushed into the bathroom and gathered around Kokichi's unconscious body lying on the floor. Shuichi knelt down beside him and held him close. We both saw the empty bottle of pills and the blade on the floor. We knew what he had done.
"DONT JUST STAND THERE!" Shuichi yelled at me.
"CALL AN AMBULENCE! HES FUCKING OVERDOSED!!" I was shocked. Why? Why did you do this to yourself? A tear rolled down my cheek as I grabbed my phone from my pocket and dialled for an ambulance.

Shuichi's POV

Pacing in the waiting room of a hospital. Will he be ok? Why did he do that? Is it my fault? I didn't look after him well enough. I could have prevented this if I protected him properly. I was so goddamn oblivious! Why Kokichi?! WHY?!
A doctor came up to us.
"Are you here for Mr Oma?" He asked.
"Y-yes." I stuttered through tears.
"Oh, good. He's going to be okay. He's still asleep in the room." My face lit up. A fraction of hope appeared in my heart. I smiled.
"But," the doctor started.
"There are a few things you should know about that we found."
"I'm listening." I said. The doctor told us that he found scars on Kokichi's arms. That must have been from the blade we found in the bathroom earlier! He's been self harming! They also did a firm check on his body and found rope marks on his neck. He's tried this before!? And I didn't even know about it! I'm so oblivious. And I'm supposed to be protecting him.
"We've diagnosed him with depression, anxiety and panic disorder. Panic disorder is where someone feels a sudden attack of panic or fear, anxiety is where someone feels sudden worry, nervousness, or unease about something with an uncertain outcome, and depression is where someone feels severe despondency and dejection. I think its best if he doesn't take his pills anymore and instead he can talk about his feelings with someone he trusts. I'll ask him about it later. Please look after him. He's too young to cut his life short like this. He still has his whole life to live." By the time he finished, Teiko came back and we were both in tears.
"You can wait in his room for now if you want, but visiting hours will end soon. If he wakes before visiting hours are over, you all can go home. Stay well you two." I stood up.
"Thank you doctor." The doctor then walked away. I looked at Teiko who was staring at the ground.
"Are you going to come?" I quizzed.
"No. You go ahead." She answered, still not making eye contact.
"A-alright." I left Teiko in the waiting room. I feel so bad for her.

Teiko's POV

After I was certain Shuichi had disappeared from view, I looked up from the ground. He... he he.... ha ha ha...... Ha ha ha ha ha aha ha ahaha!! Hes finally done something stupid! And Shuichi didn't even suspect I was ecstatic about it!! I guess this acting lessons payed off. I hope that little shit never wakes up. He can die a painfully slow death for all I care! I should probably leave now. From that, I left the hospital.

Shuichi's POV

I entered Kokichi's room and sat down on the chair beside his bed where he lay quietly. He was sound asleep. Its peaceful. I'm just glad he's okay. I grabbed hold of his hand as I wished for him to wake up soon, and just my luck he did! He rolled around as he opened his eyes and sat up.
"Kokichi!" I sprung up from the chair and jumped onto him and hugged him so tightly I was probably crushing him (For a second time).
"E-eh? Shuichi?"
"Thats right. You had no idea how worried I was! Don't ever do that to me again, please!"
He just giggled.
"Sorry Shu Shu." And he's back to his normal self. I guess that's good. I smiled at him and hugged him again. He hugged back this time. My heart melted. Is it really that? I guess it might be. I just hope he feels the same.
"Alright! Your awake now, so we can go back to the dorms now." I said.
"O-okay." He replied. I helped him up and then we ventured back out to school. I have to tell the principle that Teiko isn't staying anymore now.
This time. Kokichi came with me.

Plopping ourselves on our bed, (even though we have separate beds, we decided to share one because why not!) I made sure Kokichi didn't pull another trick on me again so I made him stay out of the bathroom. I didn't look though! I'm not a perv!
"Kokichi. I hope you know you're not a burden to me. To anyone!" He was silent for a moment, then replied.
"I know. Thank you." I smiled at him. He then tackled me onto the bed and pinned me down.
"W-wah!?" I couldn't even speak properly.
'Come on Shuichi. I know you want this' Kokichi said, motioning to himself.
'K-Kokichi, you just got out of the hospital. You have to rest!' He pulled me closer to him but I pushed him away from me and rolled him over on the bed so that we were on our backs next to each other. It was silent. I broke that silence with:
'I'm sorry Kokichi, but you need to rest.' I said, trying to stay calm.
'Its fine.' Thats all he said before turning on to his side away from me and supposedly sleeping. I sighed and closed my eyes to sleep in the silence.