🤠🖕🏻~ your house ~ 🖕🏻🤠
it was around 3:45 am and issac and you were having a sleepover at your house but your anxiety was through the roof all day , it wasn't for anything necessarily specific , just everything going on
issac was asleep and you were sitting up with your back against the headboard and your head rested on your knees , tears were falling down your face and you were hyperventilating and shaking badly , one of the things that always happens during your panic attacks is you make fists with your hands and you can't stop , like you can't get your hand to go out of a fist because you clench it so tight (that's one of the things that happens to me in my panic attacks so imma just use this)
you felt like you were going to pass out and you started swaying back and forth which only made it worse but it was a trigger that you did when having them
isaac woke up to the sound of you crying and immediately sat up
"hey hey hey baby what's wrong" he said
you didn't answer because it was hard to talk , you were really over heated and he could tell because your cheeks were red and your skin was hot when he touched you
he pulled your hair back putting it in a lousy ponytail but it was better than most guys could do
he wiped your tears but they quickly came back
"(y/n) what happened"
"i don't know" you said shakily
"it's okay , here breathe with me okay" he said trying to get your attention
"issac in gonna pass out" you said quickly , you were getting really dizzy
"no your not baby , just focus on breathing okay , here try your best to copy me" he said
you nodded and he was breathing deeply trying to help me
you tried your best but you kept breathing fast , it was working but not that well
"hey , hey , focus okay" he said
you nodded again and copied his breathing which helped you calm down
after about 10 minutes you were back to your normal breathing , you were still dizzy though from breathing so heavily like that
he hugged you running his hands through your hair and when you guys eventually let go he said
"why didn't you wake me up"
"i don't like to draw attention" you replied
"you could've passed out"
"i'm okay" you said
"please tell me next time if anything like that happens" he said
he wiped the tears of of your cheek with his thumb and gave you a water because you were still somewhat overheated
"here" he said handing you a cold water he got from the fridge
"thanks" you said grabbing it , your hands were still shaky and not 100 percent movable , they still formed into a fist like shape but you were able to take the water bottle
he put on friends because he knows you fall asleep easily too it and grabbed the blanket he got you for your birthday and gave it to you
"are you okay" he asked
"mhm" you said nodding
"are you sure?" he said
"yeah" you said , "i'm okay" you reassured him smiling
"good" he says pulling you towards him
"i love you" he whispers
"i love you more" you say
(why am i like this. why am i publishing this. i'm already regretting it. and why the emojis, i tried being cool 😭)
