Serendipity (KakaIru Yaoi Fanfic)

4.Merry Go Round

IRUKA UMINO

" How are you feeling now?"
Katoka asked with a worried face.
I smiled assuring her,

" I'm all fine now, Katoka. Thanks for being always here for me."

Katoka ruffled my hair,
" What are you thanking me for. Don't mention it, I'm your sister and bestfriend, must you not forget that, Iruka. "

She really is. I'm grateful for that.

" So what happened this time? "
She suddenly asked while sitting beside the bed.
I looked at her and she looked back sternly. I see resemblance with Kakashi and her.

I turned to look away.
" Hmm?? What happened Iruka?"

" Well.... it is just the usual thing."
I simplified.

" Kakashi hooking up with girls isn't a usual thing especially when he's in a relationship with you. "
I sensed anger in Katoka's reply.

" E..err... I..----"

" Did you asked him? Did you two spatted? What did he say?"

" N-no. We didn't. "

" Goodness Iruka! Until when are you gonna keep quiet about it?!"
I flinched as Katoka cluttered to sit straight in her seat.

" Oh--- I'm sorry. "
Katoka blinked realizing she kind of scared me so she apologized while massaging her temple.

I drooped my head.
And Katoka climbed to the bed to sit beside me.

" It hurts me that he's doing it but I'm afraid to condemn him... I'm a-fraid he'll le-leave ..me. "
I rendered sobbing from explaining. Katoka immediately hugged me.

" No... please don't cry Iruka. It's hurting me too. Hush now... calm down..."

" W-what should I d-do...I felt like I can't go on without him.."

Why have I loved Kakashi this hard that I felt like I will be alone and empty if he's not with me...

" No.. Iruka... hush ..."
I surrendered crying hard in Katoka's embrace. She's patting my back, comforting me nonstop.

" Iruka... listen, "
Katoka separated from hugging me and face me directly with her almost crying face, she clamped my face with both hands then said,

" I know, you love Kakashi very much, you're shortening ...your time f-faster  but realize that y-your world isn't revolving around him alone. Don't forget that I'm here for you and your family ..no matter what happens, ok??"

"Y-Yes----ahcck ----"
Suddenly, I felt difficulty in breathing.
I'm hyperventilating. Katoka was shocked, she panicked and trembled asking me.

" Oh my God! I-Iruka?! W-What's happening? Are you hurt somewhere?! What should I do?!!"

I clenched my chest, I felt like drowning. The suppression now was harder than before. Katoka hurriedly hand me medicines and I took it.

" Iruka, breathe ok? Take a deep breathe. Everything's gonna be alright.  Breathe slowly."

I can't seemed to hear Katoka properly. I felt fainting. My sight is getting blurry. The medicine was likely not taking effect.

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" His stress has taken a big part on triggering his condition. Do you know what stress is he facing so we can likely measure things and give advices? "

" Well.... I don't think his work in publishing company is stressing him out but likely his personal problems. I'll try my best to coax him, Doc. "

" Is that so. And by the way, his family? Have you notified them?"

" Yes. I've explained to them already. They're on the way.."

I can hear voices talking but I can't seem to understand what they are talking about. Slowly, I opened my eyes. 

" He's awake."

I saw Katoka and the doctor. The ceiling and walls are white. This is a hospital room.

So I fainted awhile...

" Iruka. "
Katoka called out, her face is worried and her eyes are swelled and red.

" I'm s-sorry."

" No. No Iruka... stop saying sorry... Oh, You know, your mom's on the way now."

" Is that so... "

And not for long as the door opened,
Mom rushed to me with a crying face.

" Iruka !! "

" Mom..."

" Are you ...in pain s-somewhere honey,hmm?.."

" No. I'm fine."
I assured her but she won't stop crying. And the doctor approached Mom.

"Mrs. Umino, your son's condition is worsening. The best option is to confine him. "

Will I recover from that?

" Is it really that worse Doc? "
Mom asked then started crying again.

" I'd be honest with you but yes. And only little possibility that it'll lessen the pain he's experiencing. "

Ah yes, it'll lessen but I'll not recover...

Mom approached me and begged,
" Honey.... please. The surgery is------"

" Mrs. Umino, I'm so sorry to tell you but this time, undergoing surgery isn't the option anymore. His body can't take it, the possibility that he'll survive is less than 10%. "
The doctor calmly interrupted.

" Then what should we do Doc?! What should we do to save my son!??"
Mom screamed almost thrashing, she has collared the Doctor. Katoka mediate hurriedly while I was stuck in my bed, feeling tired and paralyzed. I want to hugged my mom, comfort and coax her that I'm fine and that she needs to stop crying already.

" Auntie, please calm down.."
Katoka expressed as she plead the Doctor to go out at the moment. 

" Mom... "
I called out and she quickly approached and grabbed my hand.

" W-What is it honey??"

"Please calm down, stop crying Mom... I'm sorry.... for being stubborn up till now. "
And Mom burst to tears more.

" No...stop saying like that, you're not. I love you, honey."

" I love you too, Mom..."
And Mom leaned down to kiss my forehead.

" Mom, I'll accept the confinement but can I have a ...last wish?"

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(TBC)
A/N: why is this so sad.. :_;
And btw, I'm setting this story as mature content* (like if your heart isn't still mature for some angst---I'll pray for youX'D ) but no, like srsly for the future chaps/entries. Stay tuneQwQ//