Serendipity (KakaIru Yaoi Fanfic)

8. Grand Escape

HATAKE KATOKA

It's been five days since Iruka had decided to accept the confinement at the hospital but before that, he requested to go out first saying he'll fix some things at his apartment. And I know what he really meant by that, it hurts me thinking that Iruka is gonna go to Kakashi and end everything between them, I know that he would likely do that more than anything. Iruka is too kind, I know he'd rather die in silent than let Kakashi knew his secret. He would rather have Kakashi move on from him and continue his life... alone or with someone new.

I sighed from the thoughts. I drooped my head in my table. I hate that I can't do anything. Iruka had me promised him too not to tell Kakashi----but God knows how I want Kakashi to know! I don't want... I dont want Iruka to be ... alone in these crucial moments...

I scratched my head and hair from frustration, I want to cry but I'm too worn out already. I look at the window and realized it's still raining heavily.

I took my sweater and doubled my clothes. Until my phone rang and looked at the registered number calling. It was Iruka's mother, I was alarmed at once and immediately answered. 

" : Hello, Mrs. Umino? "
" : Katoka? "
" :Yes, it's me. Is there a problem, Mrs. Umino?"
" : Will you please get Kakashi here in front of our house? I'm convinced he has been standing there last night and it's raining since morning. "
": Oh my God! Is that so---"
" : Yes please Katoka. And I felt bad I didn't let him in but Iruka had told me not to let him know. I already told him Iruka isnt here, I thought he'll be gone immediately but he's standing still. "
" : Yes, I'm on my way, laters Mrs. Umino. "

And I rushed to get my keys and went out.
It's freeezingly cold from the instilling  rain since morning and now it's late afternoon already.

I drove for 15 minutes until I arrived at Iruka's house and immediately I spotted Kakashi standing in front of the gate.
I went out of the car with an umbrella and ran to Kakashi.

He was utterly soaked. He's trembling all over  and seemed to froze any minute. His eyes were bloodshot. His cheeks and lips are turning purple and cracked.
I felt crying again from looking at his wasted position. He didn't even bother turning to look at me. He was stubborn looking in front of the house, hoping Iruka would peek at the door or window and come to him-------but no. Iruka isn't even here!

" Kakashi?? Let's get you in the car, hmmm??"
I coaxed and he isn't answering so I immediately dragged him to the car, fortunately he didn't struggle. He is utterly an ice.

I wrapped him with a towel and until then as he spoke,

" Would you please... take me to Iruka...? "
His eyes glisten, his tone was so wasted, I trembled I really wanted to drive him straight to the hospital where Iruka is now.

" I.... don't know where is Iruka. "

..............................

In my apartment.

I had Kakashi sat in the sofa. He's silent. He looked almost half alive.

I lied to him, crushing his feelings more. I don't have the right to comfort him and even if I want to, I still literally can't find the right words. 

I'm hurting too but I know both of them are hurting the most.

" Kakashi..? "

" I'm.... sorry... "
Astonished. I flinched as Kakashi suddenly apologized, his head drooped and his shoulders trembled, he is probably crying.

" If only.... I didnt acted like a jerk! If only... I didn't..do those-----"
Kakashi, with his broke voice expressed his sorrow, he's frustratingly pulling on his hair, I stopped him.

" Hussh....hushh Kakashi.. "

" I'm.... such an asshole! I purposely cheated on Iruka because I---I want him to get jealous, get mad at me.... get his attention... if only I didn't acted like that perhaps he'd stay with me until now... I'm sorry..."

" Hush.. Kakashi... c-calm down... "

" But I love Iruka... I can't go on without him... what should I do..."
Kakashi in between crying, vented his emotions in my shoulder as I hugged him, making him realize that he's not alone... 

" Katoka.... please tell me where Iruka is..."
And I flinhed from what he had suddenly said. I unconsciously faltered, I stood up in panicked,

" You know Kakashi, first of all you should take a shower because you've been soaked by the rain all day. Hurry now or you'll catch a cold------ what are you doing....!!-!? "
I was stopped from panicking as Kakashi suddenly kneeled in front of me.

No! You can't be doing that----!

I hurriedly pulled Kakashi to stand up but he won't budge an inch.

" Please... I beg you... Please... Katoka.."

" No Kakashi! Don't make this hard for me !!"

" Then tell me where is Iruka! "

" I don't know! I told you already. "

" Liar! I know you're just not telling me! "

" I really don't know! "

" Please.... Katoka... "
And he started shedding tears again.
Making my will to crumble.
But I really just can't...

" I told you Kakashi. I don't know. "
I resigned firmly as his looks got more disappointed.

He suddenly get up and walk passed me.

" Where are you going Kakashi?!"
" I'm gonna find Iruka alone."

" What?! It's raining like hell outside! Are you insane?!"

" Yes! I'm insane! I'm going to lose it if I can't see Iruka!!!"

I froze and let him continue from leaving until he suddenly look at the table.

And reached with his hands some papers------those papers are....

My eyes widened almost bulging out.

He can't see that!
Those are medical records and reports of Iruka's condition.

I hurriedly approached him but too late as he said,

" What... are these... -----medical records ...of Iruka.. ?"

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(TBC)

A/N: I like a " frustrated Kakashi" so yepX'D